Hey you, there, reading this :) Hope you've had a good weekend! Had exams last week before break started and I hope I did well,t his is one of the first semesters where I havent dug myself a huge hole i've had to climb out of which is good. My apps for transfer are out so im just a nrevous nelly now. Waaaaaitiiing.
Had a nice little stint at home in order to recoup before coming back up to the forks for work all vacation. This France trip is draining my accounts hard because the cost of the trip has gone up almost 300 bucks, money I don't really have. I hate the idea of it but I might have to get a credit card to foot some of the expenses which have come up for this trip :/ Not my first choice of how to make this trip work but im already 3600 deep so why not?
Beyond that im bored up here and, this may be TMI, but horny as shit. I havent gotten laid in three months and am really getting horned, I need to find me a boy! I hope everyone is doing well and feel free to drop off questions! I almost have enough for a Q&A post again :)
Cheers
Max
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Lo Siento Mi Amigo's
Hey everyone! Sorry I have been gone for so long but I have just had so much damn stuff on my plate ive been swamped. I am going to france for 10 days and then taking 17 days on my own to fool around over there and travel, see the world fro the eyes of a normal american gay 20 something. Of course Ill be funding this all on my own and doing it quite on the cheap so if anybody has some advice or monetary donations I'd be more than willing to take both :D
I have been working in the lab a lot and I am going to be published by the end of the semester. Me, a published researcher in the field of epigenetics. I can only hope that one day people scour the internet for things like this blog and say wow, he was here and did all this. Lofty I know but let me stay on cloud Nine with my little collaborative research project, Kay?
School is going ok, I kind of slacked the first exam and so now i'm in catch up mode while trying to juggle:
-Taxes
-My roommate crashed my truck so I have to find somewhere to get it fixed
-Work
-getting a new passport and getting affairs in order for France and Europe.
-Dealing with private loans and dispersal still
-Applications for transfer to a different uni
So right now im skimping by as usual and living the good life as an almost responsibility-less Adult, I have to admit having the insight to know its nice to be young is somewhat rewarding :)
Love life? What Love Life? Per usual still nobody to take on my wonky and sometimes bigger-than-life personality. I have tried and tied but nothing I do, or dont do, seems to make much difference. Im an overweight college queer with no prospects, a depressing notion but something made easier to swallow with an undefeatable sense of humor and perspective.
But beyond that im just juggling a lot of paperwork between school and transferring, ive thought about staying but if I can make my life improved in at least one way, its worth the risk to pursue bigger and better things. It is going to be harder to network and ake connections in the cities but I am going to use my research and experience along with a lil minnesota charm to make my way as best I can. I am here to stay, but nothing is permanent.
I hope all of you are doing well! I have so much to catch up on blog wise I might just start fresh from the last weeks worth and move on from there, to be honest I dont have enough time to go through the mountain of backlogged blogs. I only received one comment and one email in my absence. I'm hoping this year to make more connections with my readers and try to email more of them, I love interfacing with you guys and chatting, it give me so much more input to whats going on in the world and lets me see things through your eyes which I always enjoy doing. I hope again that you are all well!!! Missed you guys!
Cheers
Max
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Need Some Advice
Not exactly sure what to do with this situation guys! it has to do with work...
Since I have been back at school, I have had my hours cut a little bit. Actually if it was a little bit i'd be ok with it I am getting cut about 10 hours per paycheck compared to last year. I am supposed to have four shifts a week but I am currently running on three. I also was supposed to get a quarter raise back before xmas break but with everything going on with the store having to close a branch our in Moorhead, i thought Id let it slide until now.
But last night I was hanging out with my coworker Cole, who is a really nice kid, and he told me that James, our manager, told him that I "wasn't his first choice". And as hurful as I could take that, I really don't give a shit because James is a late 30-something, overweight, thrice married loser who works at a head shop as a CAREER. So the last thing I am is offended by this person, the problem it presents to me is that he is not at all on my side of things and isnt a big fan of me, which might explain the cut in hours. How do I go about getting more hours in this situation? My paychecks are ok but with me trying to save up to go to Europe, I could really use more hours so I can have some overhead to stow away for then and right now my paychecks are all going to groceries, bills, and expenses like toilet paper and a new bed (which was a necessity, not a luxury haha).
Maybe i'll have to find some things of mine to sell to get a little extra cash as well. Idk, this isn't looking good for staying in Europe too much longer after my trip. I'm setting up my ticket extension here soon and I need to be aware of how much money I have because bumming around Europe, even if you are trying to do it for as cheap as possible, isn't cheap. Just gotta hope and pray at this point.
Cheers
Max
Since I have been back at school, I have had my hours cut a little bit. Actually if it was a little bit i'd be ok with it I am getting cut about 10 hours per paycheck compared to last year. I am supposed to have four shifts a week but I am currently running on three. I also was supposed to get a quarter raise back before xmas break but with everything going on with the store having to close a branch our in Moorhead, i thought Id let it slide until now.
But last night I was hanging out with my coworker Cole, who is a really nice kid, and he told me that James, our manager, told him that I "wasn't his first choice". And as hurful as I could take that, I really don't give a shit because James is a late 30-something, overweight, thrice married loser who works at a head shop as a CAREER. So the last thing I am is offended by this person, the problem it presents to me is that he is not at all on my side of things and isnt a big fan of me, which might explain the cut in hours. How do I go about getting more hours in this situation? My paychecks are ok but with me trying to save up to go to Europe, I could really use more hours so I can have some overhead to stow away for then and right now my paychecks are all going to groceries, bills, and expenses like toilet paper and a new bed (which was a necessity, not a luxury haha).
Maybe i'll have to find some things of mine to sell to get a little extra cash as well. Idk, this isn't looking good for staying in Europe too much longer after my trip. I'm setting up my ticket extension here soon and I need to be aware of how much money I have because bumming around Europe, even if you are trying to do it for as cheap as possible, isn't cheap. Just gotta hope and pray at this point.
Cheers
Max
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
backtobacktoback
Ok! I havent been good at posting, but ive been busy! Loans have been a bitch and they are just now getting figured out but I dont have any of my books! So school has been a little wonky this second week back. The cosign has gone through now I just have to wait for my school, oh joy of joys. I have been on a crazy Dr. Who kick lately and am just seeing the movies between the 10th and 11th doctors. My favorite by far is Matt Smith as the 11th doctor. He's a weird looking dude with some strange habits but still my kinda cute 
dude. And he is also the source of my current bow tie trend. I need to adultize my wardrobe and by incorporating that one thing I have gotten a few nice shirts and a nice new pair of shoes, although I am still jonsing for a pair of nice leather boots. Doubt that will happen with my finances right now. I am going to pick up a text book I bought off of the schools equivalent of craigslist for 60 bucks here soon and need to bring a check (gotta remember that). I am also trying to get ahold of this guy who is offering a queen memory foam mattress and boxspring for 90 bucks, a god damn steal. I want to see it before I commit though because it is suspiciously cheap.
But alas I wasnt quite quick enough to the draw so someone is seeing it before me, I can only wait and pray they pass over it so I might get a chance to see it and make an offer. It would be so god damn nice to fit on my bed, i'm 6'5 and still sleeping on a single twin mattress which is crap to begin with. It is collapsing in the middle and I have been complaining to my parents since sophmore year about it but they don't really care, they say I can go get my own they already gave me the twin. I understand where they are coming from but with a bed this cheap we should have pounced on it sooner, the only reason I waited is because I dont have the full 90 bucks to spare with my book purchase and I was waiting on my parents to let me know if they would help and about a half hour before the other guy was supposed to go see it they txted me they would help with half but its too late to get in before he goes to see it. Here is to hoping and praying haha.
Beyond that not much else going on, im taking 12 credits this semester so I can work enough to save for my trip to Europe this may. I'm taking:
-cell bio
-micro bio
-Shakespeare's Antony and Cleopatra
-honors Gastronomy and french cooking
-honors the brain-teaching in our schools
-medical terminology
Not a heavy load but just a lot of classes so a lot of running around and lost of smaller readings and tasks instead of really big ones once in awhile. It'll keep me busy thats for sure! As soon as my loans come in and everything normalizes I can then apply to my transfer universities, so in the next couple weeks i'll be applying and in the next month and a half hearing if I make it into anywhere. Very Very nervous about this. I am hoping and praying I get out of this hell hole.
I hope everyone is well and having a good week!
Cheers
Max
But alas I wasnt quite quick enough to the draw so someone is seeing it before me, I can only wait and pray they pass over it so I might get a chance to see it and make an offer. It would be so god damn nice to fit on my bed, i'm 6'5 and still sleeping on a single twin mattress which is crap to begin with. It is collapsing in the middle and I have been complaining to my parents since sophmore year about it but they don't really care, they say I can go get my own they already gave me the twin. I understand where they are coming from but with a bed this cheap we should have pounced on it sooner, the only reason I waited is because I dont have the full 90 bucks to spare with my book purchase and I was waiting on my parents to let me know if they would help and about a half hour before the other guy was supposed to go see it they txted me they would help with half but its too late to get in before he goes to see it. Here is to hoping and praying haha.
Beyond that not much else going on, im taking 12 credits this semester so I can work enough to save for my trip to Europe this may. I'm taking:
-cell bio
-micro bio
-Shakespeare's Antony and Cleopatra
-honors Gastronomy and french cooking
-honors the brain-teaching in our schools
-medical terminology
Not a heavy load but just a lot of classes so a lot of running around and lost of smaller readings and tasks instead of really big ones once in awhile. It'll keep me busy thats for sure! As soon as my loans come in and everything normalizes I can then apply to my transfer universities, so in the next couple weeks i'll be applying and in the next month and a half hearing if I make it into anywhere. Very Very nervous about this. I am hoping and praying I get out of this hell hole.
I hope everyone is well and having a good week!
Cheers
Max
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
First day
First day back at classes. Didn't like it, but hey, just gotta get through this semester then i'm home free for a different university as long as I get into one :/ Application writing is on hold due to the fact that I need to get this semester paid for! I still have to pay back my fees from last semester before I can finish registering for classes, and I need my tuition total from the university in order to get that for the loans so this one little task is holding up the whole ship here. I am going to be talking to my dad shortly in order to pay off this debt and then get the ball rolling on loans, which is better in your guys's minds; Fixed or Variable interest? I found a bank that, with a cosign, I can get a very low interest rate, around 2-3 percent! So I just need to figure out how much and what interest I want to get.
My first class today was microbio which is going to be a cake walk as long as I keep up with the content, I still need to get my books so that will be difficult but I will find a way! My next class was my French Gastronomy class, an awesome julia childs fueld food adventure which I cannot wait to jump into. We had brie cheese and bread this afternoon along with some sweets and some bubbly! Well non-alcoholic sparkling grape juice, but you get the point lol. I also still owe a 95 dollar check to the company doing my trip, so this trip is costing about 3400 plus 200 for the school plus 95 to hold my spot plus 150 to extend my ticket out a few weeks. So what is that, 3850 before I factor in spending money for the rest of the trip and renewing my passport and a camera? So fuckin expensive, I hope I can make enough money to have enough to stay the last few weeks. Maybe I should scale it back to two weeks? Idk that would depress me not to get a good look at Europe since I'm already there. Maybe I could sell my TV, or autographed pictures of myself....hrm. Anyways. I'll figure something out, I always do!
Beyond that not a whole lot is new, got work right now and for the rest of the night, spose ill go do some homework and be a bum. Feel free to drop me some more questions, I still have a couple but not enough for a post so come at me boys, you know how honest ill be!
Cheers
Max
My first class today was microbio which is going to be a cake walk as long as I keep up with the content, I still need to get my books so that will be difficult but I will find a way! My next class was my French Gastronomy class, an awesome julia childs fueld food adventure which I cannot wait to jump into. We had brie cheese and bread this afternoon along with some sweets and some bubbly! Well non-alcoholic sparkling grape juice, but you get the point lol. I also still owe a 95 dollar check to the company doing my trip, so this trip is costing about 3400 plus 200 for the school plus 95 to hold my spot plus 150 to extend my ticket out a few weeks. So what is that, 3850 before I factor in spending money for the rest of the trip and renewing my passport and a camera? So fuckin expensive, I hope I can make enough money to have enough to stay the last few weeks. Maybe I should scale it back to two weeks? Idk that would depress me not to get a good look at Europe since I'm already there. Maybe I could sell my TV, or autographed pictures of myself....hrm. Anyways. I'll figure something out, I always do!
Beyond that not a whole lot is new, got work right now and for the rest of the night, spose ill go do some homework and be a bum. Feel free to drop me some more questions, I still have a couple but not enough for a post so come at me boys, you know how honest ill be!
Cheers
Max
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Maybe a new-new years resolution
Well fo course i'm going to keep my work out goal, I want to get rid of this holiday blub and slim a bit. I know I would have to radically change my lifestyle to slim to th epoint I want and to be honest I really don't have the means to afford eating healthy enough, its going to be a lot of carbs and weird proteins like eggs and ground beef. I really want to eat far more produce but it is quite expensive here in grand forks so Its almost more of a treat to afford fruit than an essential food group. But I am working out more and eating better still so baby steps, right?
A new-new years goal i'm going to have is actually a little project AEK from who writes The Masks We Wearhas helped me research a little. I have had some discomfort in how tight the skin on my dick is, it can tear a little bit if I masturbate more than once in a day and really shouldnt have to be a concern, especially at my age. When I was circumcised they took a little too much off is the best way I can explain it. It doesnt hurt to get an erection or even fool around but if I jerk off for too long it can get raw and uncomfortable. So I am going to try stretching and regrowing my foreskin through the use of medical tape. AEK has found me some stupendous self help sites which show the whole process, which can take upwards of 6 YEARS to finish depending on how quckly your body grows new cells in response to the stretching. As a younger man I don't think it'll take me that long but considering my situation perhaps it will take a little longer than the average guy. I just need the slack in order to keep from having microtears and discomfort. I don't know exactly when Ill be starting just because I need to figure out the logistics of how to tape, how to pee if taped, and other social things like that. Hopefully it works :D
Besides that not a whole lot going on, finally got paid so I can pay my student fees and get my last classes enrolled in, then get my loan totals and start shopping for loans. It sucks but hey, school is school. My parents will be pleased when all they have to do is cosign a loan and but my books which shouldnt be too bad this semester. It will be a busy semester though. Speakupp is going to be rolling again soon, I am taking only 13 credits but also working closely with our ten percent society on our upcoming second annual North Dakota Out conference held here at UND. That plus working and planning for about a month in Europe, oofda I need a break already! Now, only to find a boy to share it all with :/
Hope you all had a great friday night and have plans for tonight :D
Cheers
Max
A new-new years goal i'm going to have is actually a little project AEK from who writes The Masks We Wearhas helped me research a little. I have had some discomfort in how tight the skin on my dick is, it can tear a little bit if I masturbate more than once in a day and really shouldnt have to be a concern, especially at my age. When I was circumcised they took a little too much off is the best way I can explain it. It doesnt hurt to get an erection or even fool around but if I jerk off for too long it can get raw and uncomfortable. So I am going to try stretching and regrowing my foreskin through the use of medical tape. AEK has found me some stupendous self help sites which show the whole process, which can take upwards of 6 YEARS to finish depending on how quckly your body grows new cells in response to the stretching. As a younger man I don't think it'll take me that long but considering my situation perhaps it will take a little longer than the average guy. I just need the slack in order to keep from having microtears and discomfort. I don't know exactly when Ill be starting just because I need to figure out the logistics of how to tape, how to pee if taped, and other social things like that. Hopefully it works :D
Besides that not a whole lot going on, finally got paid so I can pay my student fees and get my last classes enrolled in, then get my loan totals and start shopping for loans. It sucks but hey, school is school. My parents will be pleased when all they have to do is cosign a loan and but my books which shouldnt be too bad this semester. It will be a busy semester though. Speakupp is going to be rolling again soon, I am taking only 13 credits but also working closely with our ten percent society on our upcoming second annual North Dakota Out conference held here at UND. That plus working and planning for about a month in Europe, oofda I need a break already! Now, only to find a boy to share it all with :/
Hope you all had a great friday night and have plans for tonight :D
Cheers
Max
Friday, January 6, 2012
Mild Changes
Hey everyone, havent done a spectacular job of posting or even posting well so I'm hoping to recap and get everything up to speed in this post. So i'm assuming its going to be a long one, my bad :/
Break was great, I got home just in time for xmas but not with enough time in order to get gifts, so I am doing some late shopping for my siblings now. They understand, and there are great sales so I'm not too worried about it. But it does have to be fit in with a laundry list of other things I have to do :/ First and foremost I need to pay off my student fees from last semester, which consist mostly of parking tickets :/ I was really unhappy with UND and got in one of those "Fuck You" moods where I would park where ever I damn well pleased. I got away with A LOT but definitely got a few tickets...actually about 140 bucks worth. Was it worth it? Kind of.
But since those fees are on my account I cant enroll in my last couple of classes, and with them starting next tuesday, i better get my ass in gear. Once last semesters fees are dealt with, and im all enrolled, I then have to move on to this semesters. This is my first time getting a loan not from the government and I have no idea how to shop for one, obviously low interest is the goal but I also have to keep in mind my credit (no idea what kind of credit I have) and repayment rules. All my loans up until now have been through my school and I dont have to repay anything until 6 months after school has finished. I kind of wanna keep that. But with my trip, this semester is going to cost around 7200 bucks. I knew the trip wasnt going to be cheap but whoa! with financial aide I think I will still owe about 3700 bucks, but my loan allotment per semester in the private sector is around 5200 so I will probably take 4700-5000 that way I can get the camera I need and will have some travel money when I do get over there and am on my own. I also will be saving up a bunch up this semester while I work. I'm going to be broke all the time but it will be so worth it :) Plus my bike settlement when it is done, will pay back a good portion of this private loan, so all in all this trip will be expensive but manageable. I'm very excited, can't wait to get more research done on where I should go and when I can finally do some budgeting to see how much spending money (if any) I will have.
Once all my loan things are taken of and school is "Paid" for, I will then be able to begin applying to my transfer schools. I had an alright semester, 3.44 term Gpa, but with an overall cumulative gpa pf 2.855, a net gain of .1 from last semester, I am still nervous about being able to get into my transfer schools of choice. I want to go to the University of Minnesota Twin cities because all my friends and family live there and I would be most comfortable, it is also the midrange tuition cost university on my list. The others I am applying to are madison, eau claire, and Duluth. I have looked at private schools, especially since I am only going to be in a transfer university for 1-1.5 years depending on credit transfers. I am glad I have been doing some extracurriculars, that way I can beef up my resume and hope to god the U of M will take me, I want to be able to go home so badly, and life would be a bit cheaper.
I had all of this looming over my head over break and couldnt really do much about it from home, which is frustrating so getting up here early has kind of been a blessing. Also I needed to give my parents a little space, over break I CAME OUT TO THEM. Yup, pretty unplanned but very very VERY relieving. My mom straight up asked me and I said "Yup!" and then showed her a watch I got online the night before. We talked about it a couple times after that, shes open to the idea but not 100% with it yet, they are going to need an adjustment period at every little stage (me bringing home a boy for xmas eventually may be a bit for them to swallow...) but hey, progress!! They now know and I dont have to hide the shit out of myself now, actually I dont have to hide at all, its liberating, I feel a great weight coming off of my chest and its letting me use that energy towards other things, like speakupp. I am going to be applying to some grants and scholarships so hopefully I can find funding for the equipment and get this ball rolling again. I liked having something besides my future and my school to focus on, and it kept me busy as well. I probably wont be able to get anything really rolling until I am back in the cities in terms of recordings, but that is ok because my most dedicated partners in this project are back there, and to be honest I think there are a few more gays down there so more people to get to participate in the project.
But once all my applications, loans, and payments are done i'll be back to my normal grind. Back to studying my ass off and getting mediocre grades, enjoying life as best I can, and trying to be a normal old gay.
Ok gay moment of the day, I have bow ties now, and beefed the hell out of my wardrobe while I was in the cities. Hit hella sales and am very happy with my new more adult/non casual wardrobe. Now I just need a boy on my arm and the set is all complete :) oh and boots...and high tops...god it never ends
Anyways, Cheers! And I hope everyone is having a great week and is ready for a bomb weekend :D
Max
Break was great, I got home just in time for xmas but not with enough time in order to get gifts, so I am doing some late shopping for my siblings now. They understand, and there are great sales so I'm not too worried about it. But it does have to be fit in with a laundry list of other things I have to do :/ First and foremost I need to pay off my student fees from last semester, which consist mostly of parking tickets :/ I was really unhappy with UND and got in one of those "Fuck You" moods where I would park where ever I damn well pleased. I got away with A LOT but definitely got a few tickets...actually about 140 bucks worth. Was it worth it? Kind of.
But since those fees are on my account I cant enroll in my last couple of classes, and with them starting next tuesday, i better get my ass in gear. Once last semesters fees are dealt with, and im all enrolled, I then have to move on to this semesters. This is my first time getting a loan not from the government and I have no idea how to shop for one, obviously low interest is the goal but I also have to keep in mind my credit (no idea what kind of credit I have) and repayment rules. All my loans up until now have been through my school and I dont have to repay anything until 6 months after school has finished. I kind of wanna keep that. But with my trip, this semester is going to cost around 7200 bucks. I knew the trip wasnt going to be cheap but whoa! with financial aide I think I will still owe about 3700 bucks, but my loan allotment per semester in the private sector is around 5200 so I will probably take 4700-5000 that way I can get the camera I need and will have some travel money when I do get over there and am on my own. I also will be saving up a bunch up this semester while I work. I'm going to be broke all the time but it will be so worth it :) Plus my bike settlement when it is done, will pay back a good portion of this private loan, so all in all this trip will be expensive but manageable. I'm very excited, can't wait to get more research done on where I should go and when I can finally do some budgeting to see how much spending money (if any) I will have.
Once all my loan things are taken of and school is "Paid" for, I will then be able to begin applying to my transfer schools. I had an alright semester, 3.44 term Gpa, but with an overall cumulative gpa pf 2.855, a net gain of .1 from last semester, I am still nervous about being able to get into my transfer schools of choice. I want to go to the University of Minnesota Twin cities because all my friends and family live there and I would be most comfortable, it is also the midrange tuition cost university on my list. The others I am applying to are madison, eau claire, and Duluth. I have looked at private schools, especially since I am only going to be in a transfer university for 1-1.5 years depending on credit transfers. I am glad I have been doing some extracurriculars, that way I can beef up my resume and hope to god the U of M will take me, I want to be able to go home so badly, and life would be a bit cheaper.
I had all of this looming over my head over break and couldnt really do much about it from home, which is frustrating so getting up here early has kind of been a blessing. Also I needed to give my parents a little space, over break I CAME OUT TO THEM. Yup, pretty unplanned but very very VERY relieving. My mom straight up asked me and I said "Yup!" and then showed her a watch I got online the night before. We talked about it a couple times after that, shes open to the idea but not 100% with it yet, they are going to need an adjustment period at every little stage (me bringing home a boy for xmas eventually may be a bit for them to swallow...) but hey, progress!! They now know and I dont have to hide the shit out of myself now, actually I dont have to hide at all, its liberating, I feel a great weight coming off of my chest and its letting me use that energy towards other things, like speakupp. I am going to be applying to some grants and scholarships so hopefully I can find funding for the equipment and get this ball rolling again. I liked having something besides my future and my school to focus on, and it kept me busy as well. I probably wont be able to get anything really rolling until I am back in the cities in terms of recordings, but that is ok because my most dedicated partners in this project are back there, and to be honest I think there are a few more gays down there so more people to get to participate in the project.
But once all my applications, loans, and payments are done i'll be back to my normal grind. Back to studying my ass off and getting mediocre grades, enjoying life as best I can, and trying to be a normal old gay.
Ok gay moment of the day, I have bow ties now, and beefed the hell out of my wardrobe while I was in the cities. Hit hella sales and am very happy with my new more adult/non casual wardrobe. Now I just need a boy on my arm and the set is all complete :) oh and boots...and high tops...god it never ends
Anyways, Cheers! And I hope everyone is having a great week and is ready for a bomb weekend :D
Max
Monday, January 2, 2012
Back to school
Back to school tomorrow! But here are some answers to some more good questions :)
1. Regarding #2 in this post, does your dick get more sensitive right after you cum? You had mentioned before that it's not that sensitive, but you say it's more sensitive here.
It is more sensitive after I cum for sure, but not till after, before its not all that sensitive.
2. Any new year's resolutions? If so, what're they?
Work out three + times a week! Trim down so I can get some nice clothes for good!!
3. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
Whale! The live a long time and see a lot of the world :)
4. If you could fluently learn 5 foreign languages, what would they be?
-Italian
-Mandarin Chinese
-Spanish
-French
-German
5. What 5 questions would you ask me to start of 2012? :-P
-What is you favorite trait about yourself? It can be physical or character-wise
-Describe your perfect man
-Last song you listened to
-Favorite thing which is green
-Would you ever participate in an orgy?
6. If you had to eat only one thing for the rest of your life (nutrition aside), what would it be?
Steak? Yeah, steak.
7. What are your top 5 destinations that you want to (re)visit in the world?
Lizpeg, Grave of mozart
Italy/Rome
Vienna austria
Xian, China
New Delhi India
Please answer any of these questions below or feel free to leave more questions in the comment area or through formspring.
Cheers!
Max
1. Regarding #2 in this post, does your dick get more sensitive right after you cum? You had mentioned before that it's not that sensitive, but you say it's more sensitive here.
It is more sensitive after I cum for sure, but not till after, before its not all that sensitive.
2. Any new year's resolutions? If so, what're they?
Work out three + times a week! Trim down so I can get some nice clothes for good!!
3. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
Whale! The live a long time and see a lot of the world :)
4. If you could fluently learn 5 foreign languages, what would they be?
-Italian
-Mandarin Chinese
-Spanish
-French
-German
5. What 5 questions would you ask me to start of 2012? :-P
-What is you favorite trait about yourself? It can be physical or character-wise
-Describe your perfect man
-Last song you listened to
-Favorite thing which is green
-Would you ever participate in an orgy?
6. If you had to eat only one thing for the rest of your life (nutrition aside), what would it be?
Steak? Yeah, steak.
7. What are your top 5 destinations that you want to (re)visit in the world?
Lizpeg, Grave of mozart
Italy/Rome
Vienna austria
Xian, China
New Delhi India
Please answer any of these questions below or feel free to leave more questions in the comment area or through formspring.
Cheers!
Max
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Happy new year
Happy new year all!! Thanks for sticking around another year!! I think im going to reinvent this blog a little bit because I have made some significant strides in the past year and a new angle, or maybe just a new look is in order :) Debating if I want to start completely new or not but im not going to be doing this until either later today or next week at work. I have to drive home early tomorrow so I can get home in time for work so we can do inventory :( frackin blows but the money is good :/
had a good bow-tie-y night and all in all had a bomb time. only wish I had a boy to share with it all :) But hey, maybe this year right? Hope you all had good SAFE fun ;)
Here are some questions to finish out last year, questions always welcomed :D
Other than being tall, what other 5 physical aspects of a guy do you find sexy/prefer?
I love:
-A little scruff on a strong jaw bone
-good hair
-glasses are hot but not required
-have to know how to dress, im not just gonna date my bf we're gonna be a POWER COUPLE *cue thunder and lightning lol
-Not gonna lie, a big package would not hurt at all, again not a requirement but it is what I find attractive lol
What do you usually sleep in (that is, with a T-shirt, in boxers, in pjs, in the nude)?
Usually I sleep in boxers and thats it, but if I jerk off before bed I always love sleeping nude, your dick is just more sensitive so since I sleep on my stomach is feels really good haha TMI? Never.
Do you use lube when you wank? If so, what kind? If not, why not?
I do not, I "dry-dog-it". But I have been running into "issues" with that since when I was circumcised they took a lil too much, so getting an erection for me pulls the skin more tightly than an uncircumcised penis. So perhaps i'll have to try out lube, it should help.
If you could change 5 things (physically) about yourself, what would they be and why?
I would change:
-My metabolism. I know im overweight because of what I eat and my physical fitness regiment but a stronger and more robust metabolism would help in burning off some body fat.
_ I honestly wish I was uncircumcised, it would feel better I imagine, plus in my case it would be extra nice...
-I wish I had a butt. I dont have one and it bothers me :(
-I wish I had a bigger dick, I mean I'm happy with what I got but a solid 7.5-8 in cock would be awesome.
-Wish I was just a hair shorter, then finding clothes without having to tailor all of them would be much easier haha
If you could change 5 things (non-physical) about yourself, what would they be and why?
I would change:
-My need to prove my father wrong, I just need to grow up.
-I would work harder and not try and skate by, even though I seem to be doing pretty well at it, which reinforces that terrible habit.
-I would stop procrastinating, kind of included in the previous but that especially.
-I would be even more adventurous and keep my academic curiosity as high as possible, i'm working on it but it is a process.
-Find a boy :)
Any more questions send them my way :)
Cheers and happy new year
Max
had a good bow-tie-y night and all in all had a bomb time. only wish I had a boy to share with it all :) But hey, maybe this year right? Hope you all had good SAFE fun ;)
Here are some questions to finish out last year, questions always welcomed :D
Other than being tall, what other 5 physical aspects of a guy do you find sexy/prefer?
I love:
-A little scruff on a strong jaw bone
-good hair
-glasses are hot but not required
-have to know how to dress, im not just gonna date my bf we're gonna be a POWER COUPLE *cue thunder and lightning lol
-Not gonna lie, a big package would not hurt at all, again not a requirement but it is what I find attractive lol
What do you usually sleep in (that is, with a T-shirt, in boxers, in pjs, in the nude)?
Usually I sleep in boxers and thats it, but if I jerk off before bed I always love sleeping nude, your dick is just more sensitive so since I sleep on my stomach is feels really good haha TMI? Never.
Do you use lube when you wank? If so, what kind? If not, why not?
I do not, I "dry-dog-it". But I have been running into "issues" with that since when I was circumcised they took a lil too much, so getting an erection for me pulls the skin more tightly than an uncircumcised penis. So perhaps i'll have to try out lube, it should help.
If you could change 5 things (physically) about yourself, what would they be and why?
I would change:
-My metabolism. I know im overweight because of what I eat and my physical fitness regiment but a stronger and more robust metabolism would help in burning off some body fat.
_ I honestly wish I was uncircumcised, it would feel better I imagine, plus in my case it would be extra nice...
-I wish I had a butt. I dont have one and it bothers me :(
-I wish I had a bigger dick, I mean I'm happy with what I got but a solid 7.5-8 in cock would be awesome.
-Wish I was just a hair shorter, then finding clothes without having to tailor all of them would be much easier haha
If you could change 5 things (non-physical) about yourself, what would they be and why?
I would change:
-My need to prove my father wrong, I just need to grow up.
-I would work harder and not try and skate by, even though I seem to be doing pretty well at it, which reinforces that terrible habit.
-I would stop procrastinating, kind of included in the previous but that especially.
-I would be even more adventurous and keep my academic curiosity as high as possible, i'm working on it but it is a process.
-Find a boy :)
Any more questions send them my way :)
Cheers and happy new year
Max
Friday, December 30, 2011
The Holiday Experience
Well right off the bat, this has been an exceptionally weird break. I'm at home which is unusual because usually my dad and I are at eachothers neck by now. I think it may have something to do with me coming out to my mom. Yeah, you read right. It wasnt really planned, I was just sitting in her giant ass bed with her talking about the watch I wanted for xmas and she straight up just asked if I was gay, and at this point im so sick of hiding it I said yes. Shes been semi-cool with it thus far but its going to take time for both of us to process it all, and im sure my dad knows by association now but I dont care, im free. Im out. I can do what ever I want with whoever I want and it doesnt have to be hidden. I no longer have to lie about it. Its a phenomenal feeling :)
I was supposed to meet up with David while I was down here but he had to cancel :/ I wanna meet this boy bad but he hasnt been too responsive to meeting up, might toss that fish back soon...
Didnt get anything of any real note for xmas, an adventure time calendar, some suspenders, gift cards, and a whiskey decanter in the shape of a train (i friggin love trains). But with the little bit of money I got I got some new jeans, corduroy pants, a new shirt, and bow ties. Im so proud that I can now tie a bow tie, its awesome :D
So all in all a very eventful xmas! Im out with my bow ties, now! On to find a boy :)
Hope everybody's holidays went well! Still taking questions through formspring which I will answer only when a minimum of three have arrived. Happy new year all :)
Cheers
Max
I was supposed to meet up with David while I was down here but he had to cancel :/ I wanna meet this boy bad but he hasnt been too responsive to meeting up, might toss that fish back soon...
Didnt get anything of any real note for xmas, an adventure time calendar, some suspenders, gift cards, and a whiskey decanter in the shape of a train (i friggin love trains). But with the little bit of money I got I got some new jeans, corduroy pants, a new shirt, and bow ties. Im so proud that I can now tie a bow tie, its awesome :D
So all in all a very eventful xmas! Im out with my bow ties, now! On to find a boy :)
Hope everybody's holidays went well! Still taking questions through formspring which I will answer only when a minimum of three have arrived. Happy new year all :)
Cheers
Max
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
More questions
1. What's your favorite season of the year and why?
Summer! Shorts, fishing, biking, no school, friends, smoking out doors, camping, And I have on my bucket list to get fucked out doors and I dont see that happening any other season
2. If you had one wish, what would you wish for and why?
One wish huh. To be the doctor. Yes, to ravel space and time and get a true perspective on the human (and other species) element. The ultimate perspective.
3. If you had one super-power, what would it be? (I think I've asked this before . . .)
Flight! So I could see everything and money wold become less of an issue :)
4. What kind of underwear do you like to wear? What kind of underwear do you like to see on/take off of other guys? :-P
I like when its fancy, no particular style. American eagle boxers have a special place in my heart but half trunks and nice briefs (not the yellow ones your mom gave to you three xmas's ago) are super sexy and fun to nibble on when they're still on :)
5. Has this ever happened to you (NSFW)? If so, do tell! ;-) Delicious Video
I can honestly say it hasnt, but I know what could get me there haha a stud 8.5-9 and thick who can pound me as well as he is the guy in this video. BTW thank you for linking a vid, I enjoyed it to its maximum and I hope everyone else goes and watches it and can check out the tumblr's other videos, very hot and right up my ally :) NSFW though. I have always wanted to get fucked well enough to hands free cum but nobody has been able to get me there yet :)
6. In as much detail as possible, what does an orgasm feel like to you? Describe in more "concrete" terms rather than "abstract" (so something more than like "It feels like an explosion of pleasure and warmth").
To me, it honestly feels like someone has massaged the base of my spine while being tangled in all the nerves in my balls and dick. Tension and a final release which makes you want to laugh and fall asleep at the same time. It starts as the tension, building and building, all the way down to the tip f your cock. When you've gotten there you can kind of control when you cum, you just feel from about your ass up start to fill with even more tension as you try not to spray your load until finally you cant hold it in anymore, like having to pee badly but knowing its coming from somewhere else. Jizzing is amazing, you feel your balls contract as the dump their contents, shooting from the tip of your dick. Im a big visuals guy so the second i see cum i pump and try to shoot as much as I can, there are ways to condition yourself to shoot bigger loads and I have been experimenting with some of them. No substantial results but when I get to shoot my face its always the hottest.
7. Still got your frenulum? Is it pretty sensitive? Do you like playing with it on other guys?
Is the frenum part of the hood of your foreskin? Because I am circumcised (sadly) but I thought the frenum was just below the head of the penis. I'm going to be completely honest my penis is not that sensitive, I dont like getting head that much for that reason and topping, although I have only done it twice, just doesnt get me going like bottoming does, im far more sensitive that way. But I do love playing with other guys's, making a man moan makes me all hot and bothered, I only wish I lived alone so I could be a little more vocal with my lovers :)
8. Pirate, ninja, or samurai? Which would you be and why?
Pirate! Bunch of man stuck on a boat for long periods of time means I can still get my dick wet without walking the plank, and I get to see the world. win win.
9. So now that you have both a blog and a Tumblr, what're the pros and cons of both?
Tumblr and blogger serve slightly different purposes. I feel like blogger is more of an adult blog while tumblr is more pictures and flash. Tumblr is far more viral, blogger is harder to break into. What i hate about both sites is there is no organization to search for blogs, I cant search "gay blogs" anywhere, you either have to stumble on them or get linked somehow. I like tumblr for the ease of use uploading images, my tublr consist mostly of images simply because it is a whole different way to express yourself, a non verbal way where here this is all verbal al the time, some pictures but mostly writing. I think you guys should check out my tumblr now that I have had time to find stuff for it, if you havent already. TUMBLR TIME
10. What 5 questions would you ask me?
Well the first question is for AEK who submitted these great questions, the rest are for everyone and I would love to read your answers in the comments section below :)
1. Can I see a picture of this Terrible hair of yours? I don't buy it.
2. Most pleasurable sexual encounter/craziest (whichever is a better story haha)
3. Last song you played on your ipod/comp/mp3 player?
4. Your favorite pair of underwear
5. Top! Or bottom, or whatever in between you prefer, or none at all!!
Summer! Shorts, fishing, biking, no school, friends, smoking out doors, camping, And I have on my bucket list to get fucked out doors and I dont see that happening any other season
2. If you had one wish, what would you wish for and why?
One wish huh. To be the doctor. Yes, to ravel space and time and get a true perspective on the human (and other species) element. The ultimate perspective.
3. If you had one super-power, what would it be? (I think I've asked this before . . .)
Flight! So I could see everything and money wold become less of an issue :)
4. What kind of underwear do you like to wear? What kind of underwear do you like to see on/take off of other guys? :-P
I like when its fancy, no particular style. American eagle boxers have a special place in my heart but half trunks and nice briefs (not the yellow ones your mom gave to you three xmas's ago) are super sexy and fun to nibble on when they're still on :)
5. Has this ever happened to you (NSFW)? If so, do tell! ;-) Delicious Video
I can honestly say it hasnt, but I know what could get me there haha a stud 8.5-9 and thick who can pound me as well as he is the guy in this video. BTW thank you for linking a vid, I enjoyed it to its maximum and I hope everyone else goes and watches it and can check out the tumblr's other videos, very hot and right up my ally :) NSFW though. I have always wanted to get fucked well enough to hands free cum but nobody has been able to get me there yet :)
6. In as much detail as possible, what does an orgasm feel like to you? Describe in more "concrete" terms rather than "abstract" (so something more than like "It feels like an explosion of pleasure and warmth").
To me, it honestly feels like someone has massaged the base of my spine while being tangled in all the nerves in my balls and dick. Tension and a final release which makes you want to laugh and fall asleep at the same time. It starts as the tension, building and building, all the way down to the tip f your cock. When you've gotten there you can kind of control when you cum, you just feel from about your ass up start to fill with even more tension as you try not to spray your load until finally you cant hold it in anymore, like having to pee badly but knowing its coming from somewhere else. Jizzing is amazing, you feel your balls contract as the dump their contents, shooting from the tip of your dick. Im a big visuals guy so the second i see cum i pump and try to shoot as much as I can, there are ways to condition yourself to shoot bigger loads and I have been experimenting with some of them. No substantial results but when I get to shoot my face its always the hottest.
7. Still got your frenulum? Is it pretty sensitive? Do you like playing with it on other guys?
Is the frenum part of the hood of your foreskin? Because I am circumcised (sadly) but I thought the frenum was just below the head of the penis. I'm going to be completely honest my penis is not that sensitive, I dont like getting head that much for that reason and topping, although I have only done it twice, just doesnt get me going like bottoming does, im far more sensitive that way. But I do love playing with other guys's, making a man moan makes me all hot and bothered, I only wish I lived alone so I could be a little more vocal with my lovers :)
8. Pirate, ninja, or samurai? Which would you be and why?
Pirate! Bunch of man stuck on a boat for long periods of time means I can still get my dick wet without walking the plank, and I get to see the world. win win.
9. So now that you have both a blog and a Tumblr, what're the pros and cons of both?
Tumblr and blogger serve slightly different purposes. I feel like blogger is more of an adult blog while tumblr is more pictures and flash. Tumblr is far more viral, blogger is harder to break into. What i hate about both sites is there is no organization to search for blogs, I cant search "gay blogs" anywhere, you either have to stumble on them or get linked somehow. I like tumblr for the ease of use uploading images, my tublr consist mostly of images simply because it is a whole different way to express yourself, a non verbal way where here this is all verbal al the time, some pictures but mostly writing. I think you guys should check out my tumblr now that I have had time to find stuff for it, if you havent already. TUMBLR TIME
10. What 5 questions would you ask me?
Well the first question is for AEK who submitted these great questions, the rest are for everyone and I would love to read your answers in the comments section below :)
1. Can I see a picture of this Terrible hair of yours? I don't buy it.
2. Most pleasurable sexual encounter/craziest (whichever is a better story haha)
3. Last song you played on your ipod/comp/mp3 player?
4. Your favorite pair of underwear
5. Top! Or bottom, or whatever in between you prefer, or none at all!!
Oh so NOW I have questions
Hahaha well this blog has always been about honesty. Here we go...
Do you pre-cum much? Do you like it when other guys do or do you not care?
Do I? Not anymore than a normal person I think. I guess I did a lot last night since I was in a three some haha And I do like it when other guys too, to be honest it tastes good. But not a deal breaker by any means haha
What do you plan to do with your degree in genetics? Will you be pursuing a MS or PhD in it? Perhaps genetic counseling?
PhD is my current plan, the MD route is less research based and more diagnostic. More money but not where I want to go. Every time I learn a new genetic system I feel like I'm learning a little secret of the universe. Its enthralling and actually makes my heart beat faster. The most nerdy thing you have ever read, I know. But I want to keep unraveling this big ball about ourselves, learning more and finding ways to make ourselves better. I do feel this way of looking at things is going to be some sort of an end to us. This self discovery coupled with the tax we have on this planet may be out key to learning how to survive. More crazy stuff I know but I do love the perspective :)
What's the most number of times you've wanked in a single day?
I love it when people call it wanking :) 13. Yes you read right. To be honest there is a little story behind that too. This was in early high school when I was still exploring, and I got a chance to explore with a friend haha I feel like a lot of guys, not necessarily gay guys, have this experience of jerking with friends, or at least fooling around. I dared my friend J that we could do a wank off, who ever wanked the most, with proof (cha-ching haha). So we got at it, he made it to eight but I managed to get a hand on his man meat and jerk him off one more time. He came the most that time ;) I made it last for me 5 more times haha
Those are the questions so far, keep em coming boys!
Cheers
Max
Do you pre-cum much? Do you like it when other guys do or do you not care?
Do I? Not anymore than a normal person I think. I guess I did a lot last night since I was in a three some haha And I do like it when other guys too, to be honest it tastes good. But not a deal breaker by any means haha
What do you plan to do with your degree in genetics? Will you be pursuing a MS or PhD in it? Perhaps genetic counseling?
PhD is my current plan, the MD route is less research based and more diagnostic. More money but not where I want to go. Every time I learn a new genetic system I feel like I'm learning a little secret of the universe. Its enthralling and actually makes my heart beat faster. The most nerdy thing you have ever read, I know. But I want to keep unraveling this big ball about ourselves, learning more and finding ways to make ourselves better. I do feel this way of looking at things is going to be some sort of an end to us. This self discovery coupled with the tax we have on this planet may be out key to learning how to survive. More crazy stuff I know but I do love the perspective :)
What's the most number of times you've wanked in a single day?
I love it when people call it wanking :) 13. Yes you read right. To be honest there is a little story behind that too. This was in early high school when I was still exploring, and I got a chance to explore with a friend haha I feel like a lot of guys, not necessarily gay guys, have this experience of jerking with friends, or at least fooling around. I dared my friend J that we could do a wank off, who ever wanked the most, with proof (cha-ching haha). So we got at it, he made it to eight but I managed to get a hand on his man meat and jerk him off one more time. He came the most that time ;) I made it last for me 5 more times haha
Those are the questions so far, keep em coming boys!
Cheers
Max
Monday, December 19, 2011
I'm a dirty dirty whore. And i'm totally ok with it.
So I did get two question from the last post:
Since you are a self proclaimed POWER BOTTOM ( my partner is as well, I love them!!) what is the biggest you have "ridden "?
Well, lets answer that with a story, its time for a GRINDHOUSE DOUBLE FEATURE: TWO SMUTTY STORIES OF MINE FOR THE PRICE OF ONE!!!!!
I have been chatting with this guy on manhunt for quite some time, Jay. He's a year older than me and has a cute face as far as his manhunt profile shows, and a BIG dick. Now i'm not going to lie, as a self proclaimed power bottom I have been trying to find my limits, what I can and cant handle. Unfortunately as far as manhunt goes up here about the biggest you can find is 8.5 and thick, which is exactly what this guy was. Here is the break down.
Got off work about 4 nights ago and we had been chattin throughout the day and finally agreed to fuck. To be honest since the lil virgin boy the other night I just needed to get fucked. I don't imagine many of you recognize the impulse but there is this ache or longing to just get laid, I know tops generally feel it in their balls but me as a bottom, its a combo of that ad your prostate. Anyways, he wanted to get together so I of course obliged. The awkward part was I was going to be hanging out with Ethan right after and wouldnt have time to shower so this couldnt be a messy romp. I got to Jays place (RIGHT ACROSS THE STREET FROM ETHAN) and parked a ways away so Ethan wouldnt know I was bein a lil whore next door. I got over there and he opened the door with no lights on so when I cam into the pitch black apartment I couldnt see a thing, the only thing I could do was feel the warm hand on my butt and his lips on my neck as soon as my jacket was off. We made out in the entry way dfor a couple of minutes and next thing I know he pulls me away and guides me upstairs.
We get upstairs and the light flicks on and I get to see him in person for the first time. Hes a bit chubbier than his pic (they always are) but still a handsome guy, I could see his growing erection through his sport shorts which he was wearing like boxers. I couldnt help myself but had to get them off as soon as possible in order to see this cock he had talked to so highly of. And he was not embellishing, a semi hard about 6in cock flops out with giant low hanging balls, which is kinda hot to be honest. I started gobbing on him and before I knew it he was hard as a rock and I had trouble fitting much more then about the head and another inch of his cock in my mouth. We got into bed and stripped naked and I straddled him, teasing his dick with the crack of my wanting ass all the while playing with his nipples and teasing them with my teeth. Finally he leaned over and grabbed a condom out of the nightstand, I flipped onto my back and kind of mentally prepared for what was coming haha
Its the first inch of a cock that big that hurt, the rest is just getting used to it. I definitely winced when he tried just pushing it all in the first time, told him he had to go slow. But about 30 seconds later he had eased every inch in and it felt AMAZING. My god being streched and having so much stimulation like that made my knees week and me hard as a god damn rock. Unfortunately I have this little thing where if im sleeping with someone I can pretty much only cum when they shag me, I dont like the feeling of getting head that much and get stage freight trying to jerk off for them. So Jay here was pumping me full of his cock but had already j/o like 2-3 times that day which ment he was low on cum and easy to shoot. We shagged for maybe 2 minutes before he was cumming and I wasnt even close. He blew and I had to just deal with it, it felt great but didnt last nearly long enough haha.
So that was a few nights ago, definitely the biggest ive had but I want bigger, and more. God damn I sound like a whore...but alas it continues, Part two about last night next :D
Since you are a self proclaimed POWER BOTTOM ( my partner is as well, I love them!!) what is the biggest you have "ridden "?
Well, lets answer that with a story, its time for a GRINDHOUSE DOUBLE FEATURE: TWO SMUTTY STORIES OF MINE FOR THE PRICE OF ONE!!!!!
I have been chatting with this guy on manhunt for quite some time, Jay. He's a year older than me and has a cute face as far as his manhunt profile shows, and a BIG dick. Now i'm not going to lie, as a self proclaimed power bottom I have been trying to find my limits, what I can and cant handle. Unfortunately as far as manhunt goes up here about the biggest you can find is 8.5 and thick, which is exactly what this guy was. Here is the break down.
Got off work about 4 nights ago and we had been chattin throughout the day and finally agreed to fuck. To be honest since the lil virgin boy the other night I just needed to get fucked. I don't imagine many of you recognize the impulse but there is this ache or longing to just get laid, I know tops generally feel it in their balls but me as a bottom, its a combo of that ad your prostate. Anyways, he wanted to get together so I of course obliged. The awkward part was I was going to be hanging out with Ethan right after and wouldnt have time to shower so this couldnt be a messy romp. I got to Jays place (RIGHT ACROSS THE STREET FROM ETHAN) and parked a ways away so Ethan wouldnt know I was bein a lil whore next door. I got over there and he opened the door with no lights on so when I cam into the pitch black apartment I couldnt see a thing, the only thing I could do was feel the warm hand on my butt and his lips on my neck as soon as my jacket was off. We made out in the entry way dfor a couple of minutes and next thing I know he pulls me away and guides me upstairs.
We get upstairs and the light flicks on and I get to see him in person for the first time. Hes a bit chubbier than his pic (they always are) but still a handsome guy, I could see his growing erection through his sport shorts which he was wearing like boxers. I couldnt help myself but had to get them off as soon as possible in order to see this cock he had talked to so highly of. And he was not embellishing, a semi hard about 6in cock flops out with giant low hanging balls, which is kinda hot to be honest. I started gobbing on him and before I knew it he was hard as a rock and I had trouble fitting much more then about the head and another inch of his cock in my mouth. We got into bed and stripped naked and I straddled him, teasing his dick with the crack of my wanting ass all the while playing with his nipples and teasing them with my teeth. Finally he leaned over and grabbed a condom out of the nightstand, I flipped onto my back and kind of mentally prepared for what was coming haha
Its the first inch of a cock that big that hurt, the rest is just getting used to it. I definitely winced when he tried just pushing it all in the first time, told him he had to go slow. But about 30 seconds later he had eased every inch in and it felt AMAZING. My god being streched and having so much stimulation like that made my knees week and me hard as a god damn rock. Unfortunately I have this little thing where if im sleeping with someone I can pretty much only cum when they shag me, I dont like the feeling of getting head that much and get stage freight trying to jerk off for them. So Jay here was pumping me full of his cock but had already j/o like 2-3 times that day which ment he was low on cum and easy to shoot. We shagged for maybe 2 minutes before he was cumming and I wasnt even close. He blew and I had to just deal with it, it felt great but didnt last nearly long enough haha.
So that was a few nights ago, definitely the biggest ive had but I want bigger, and more. God damn I sound like a whore...but alas it continues, Part two about last night next :D
I'm a dirty dirty whore. And i'm totally ok with it. Part II
So last night was a random and very unexpected....threesome. Yeah, group sex. Never done it, dunno if I will again because it was barely group sex haha let me explain.
I had been chatting with a guy my height (big turn on) about hooking up for a couple days and he had just got in from the cities when I messaged him. He said he was back and although he had work early, might wanna hook up. I told him id be down and would be willing to provide rubbers if he wanted to do it. Well no sooner than I get home my buddy Ben messages me on manhunt (we are friends on fb but he im's me from there, no idea why)and I explain to him I might be hooking up with a guy. He whined that he hadnt gotten any action in six weeks and blah blah blah. Not really my problem. He asked who it was and we both kinda exchange notes on our hook ups and relationships so i gave him the dudes manhunt profile name. BAd idea. Before I knew it he was totally stealing my hook up!!! What a dick! He event old me he was chatting with him and that was why he stopped messageing me. Ben is the slim twink with a bigg-ish dick so I was outgunned there as the tall power bottom although I find myself far more attractive visually. Anyways, he then proposes the idea of group sex.
I know it has been one of Bens interests for awhile but I have never really thought about it, mostly because if there are two bottoms it just turns into a sword fight for the cock. But here I was the only bottom with two tops so I said I might be interested in his proposal. Ben asks the guy, we'll call him racer, and hes into it too. So before I know it Ben has his address and we are on our way over to go fuck this guy. It hit me really hard that me and someone I know half decently are going to have group sex with a random dude. I was turned on and disgusted at the same time, but fuck I wanted to get laid so I just let the carnal part of my brain take over. Ben picked me up and we drove over together, im not going to say it was the most awkward car drive of my life, but everything that was about to happen was starting to sink in. We go there and he buzzed us in and before we knew it we were in his entry way taking off our jackets. Of course he was a lil chubbier than his pic (EVERY TIME!!!) but he was still cute and taaaaall, Ben was about 6 inches shorter than both of us. To be honest, nobody knew how to start this shindig so i just started making out with him there and massagin his balls. Did that until he was good and hard then we moved into the living room.
For the first bit I was on my knees giving them both great head (they both said I have a gift) while the made out, we moved around between Ben sitting, racer sitting, and me giving head the WHOLE TIME. Ben was actually close to busting a couple times and had to push me off lol then, when everybody was god and horned, we moved to the bedroom. I was the condom bearer and the bottom so I just tossed them on the bed to see who would take the initiative to fuck me first. Of course ben grabbed them right away and this is where it goes from less of a threesome to a hook up between me and Ben lol He put on the condom and i payed with his balls while he made out with racer, I was kinda hoping racer would take the initiative and start topping me so he could be sandwiched between me and ben but he just sat there and watched for so long I said "Fuck It" and just straddled Ben and puhed him inside of me.
Ben is a good 7-7.5 and normal thickness so definitely something I could work with. I wanted to take control and just grind the shit out of him but he kept trying to grind and we would end up grinding the same way, essentially doing nothing so after about 10 minutes of that I pulled off and let him fuck me doggy. Now racer has just been watching and stroking this whole time, he finally dangles his precum soaked cock in fron of me and I gob on it as Ben penetrates me again, it feels so much better now that I have my back arched and ass up. I nob on racer for a couple minutes but Bens start going really deep and pushing in as far as he can until i can feel his balls on mine and I couldnt blow racer anymore, I was getting close. Ben would then speed up and pull almost all the way to the head of his cock and then drive deep and I would shudder in pleasure, Ben might be one of the best fucks ive ever had. He did that for a few minutes and I had to blow, I couldnt keep it in anymore. I leaned up and shot a huge load all over racers pillows and headboard, apologizing for the mess but watching his face in shock as I pumped out about four or five big squirts or cum,
At this point Ben had been fucking me for about 20 -25 minutes so he should have been pretty close. I went to the bathroom and quickly cleaned up. When I came back the two of them were just standing there waiting for me. I felt like their sexual mother, just guiding them around like somehow I was the dom top. Wtf. anyways, Ben was next on my list to get to shoot because he is a self proclaimed squirt gun, he shoots a lot he says. I must have given the best head of my life because I was going to town on that cock. I played with the ball, teased his ass, all the right things but he still lasted about TEN FUCKING MINUTES. He finally laid down on the bed and I blew him and he would buck, shooting his cock all the way down my throat gagging me a little. He didnt give any warning and blew a giant load in my throat, I only knew he was cumming when I felt his balls contract for the second time shooting a thick load onto my tongue, he had already coated my throat. He finished and I went to the bathroom to spit and clean up for the second time.
And then there was racer, who had been watching this all pumping his 6 in cock the whole time. I came back from the bathroom and just threw him down on the bed and began blowing him with all the intensity and ferver I had with Ben. At this point my lips hurt like hell but I go to town anyways, he had the perfect size cock for me to deepthroat as well. It only took about 5 minutes and he was bucking too, I had learned my lesson the first time and just played with the frenum with my tongue while playign with his balls and jerking him off. He blew an equally large load all over my face and because of my beard right now it all stuck right where it hit. When he finally stopped cumming and I got to go clean up for the THIRD time, the cum beard I had made me pop a woody right away, I almost jerked off again, but saved it for when I got home ;)
So that was my ridiculous night last night. Shit isnt weird between me and Ben, I got two super hot facials, and now im a slut. A dirty dirty slut. And totally ok with it.
Any more questions? :)
Cheers
Max
I had been chatting with a guy my height (big turn on) about hooking up for a couple days and he had just got in from the cities when I messaged him. He said he was back and although he had work early, might wanna hook up. I told him id be down and would be willing to provide rubbers if he wanted to do it. Well no sooner than I get home my buddy Ben messages me on manhunt (we are friends on fb but he im's me from there, no idea why)and I explain to him I might be hooking up with a guy. He whined that he hadnt gotten any action in six weeks and blah blah blah. Not really my problem. He asked who it was and we both kinda exchange notes on our hook ups and relationships so i gave him the dudes manhunt profile name. BAd idea. Before I knew it he was totally stealing my hook up!!! What a dick! He event old me he was chatting with him and that was why he stopped messageing me. Ben is the slim twink with a bigg-ish dick so I was outgunned there as the tall power bottom although I find myself far more attractive visually. Anyways, he then proposes the idea of group sex.
I know it has been one of Bens interests for awhile but I have never really thought about it, mostly because if there are two bottoms it just turns into a sword fight for the cock. But here I was the only bottom with two tops so I said I might be interested in his proposal. Ben asks the guy, we'll call him racer, and hes into it too. So before I know it Ben has his address and we are on our way over to go fuck this guy. It hit me really hard that me and someone I know half decently are going to have group sex with a random dude. I was turned on and disgusted at the same time, but fuck I wanted to get laid so I just let the carnal part of my brain take over. Ben picked me up and we drove over together, im not going to say it was the most awkward car drive of my life, but everything that was about to happen was starting to sink in. We go there and he buzzed us in and before we knew it we were in his entry way taking off our jackets. Of course he was a lil chubbier than his pic (EVERY TIME!!!) but he was still cute and taaaaall, Ben was about 6 inches shorter than both of us. To be honest, nobody knew how to start this shindig so i just started making out with him there and massagin his balls. Did that until he was good and hard then we moved into the living room.
For the first bit I was on my knees giving them both great head (they both said I have a gift) while the made out, we moved around between Ben sitting, racer sitting, and me giving head the WHOLE TIME. Ben was actually close to busting a couple times and had to push me off lol then, when everybody was god and horned, we moved to the bedroom. I was the condom bearer and the bottom so I just tossed them on the bed to see who would take the initiative to fuck me first. Of course ben grabbed them right away and this is where it goes from less of a threesome to a hook up between me and Ben lol He put on the condom and i payed with his balls while he made out with racer, I was kinda hoping racer would take the initiative and start topping me so he could be sandwiched between me and ben but he just sat there and watched for so long I said "Fuck It" and just straddled Ben and puhed him inside of me.
Ben is a good 7-7.5 and normal thickness so definitely something I could work with. I wanted to take control and just grind the shit out of him but he kept trying to grind and we would end up grinding the same way, essentially doing nothing so after about 10 minutes of that I pulled off and let him fuck me doggy. Now racer has just been watching and stroking this whole time, he finally dangles his precum soaked cock in fron of me and I gob on it as Ben penetrates me again, it feels so much better now that I have my back arched and ass up. I nob on racer for a couple minutes but Bens start going really deep and pushing in as far as he can until i can feel his balls on mine and I couldnt blow racer anymore, I was getting close. Ben would then speed up and pull almost all the way to the head of his cock and then drive deep and I would shudder in pleasure, Ben might be one of the best fucks ive ever had. He did that for a few minutes and I had to blow, I couldnt keep it in anymore. I leaned up and shot a huge load all over racers pillows and headboard, apologizing for the mess but watching his face in shock as I pumped out about four or five big squirts or cum,
At this point Ben had been fucking me for about 20 -25 minutes so he should have been pretty close. I went to the bathroom and quickly cleaned up. When I came back the two of them were just standing there waiting for me. I felt like their sexual mother, just guiding them around like somehow I was the dom top. Wtf. anyways, Ben was next on my list to get to shoot because he is a self proclaimed squirt gun, he shoots a lot he says. I must have given the best head of my life because I was going to town on that cock. I played with the ball, teased his ass, all the right things but he still lasted about TEN FUCKING MINUTES. He finally laid down on the bed and I blew him and he would buck, shooting his cock all the way down my throat gagging me a little. He didnt give any warning and blew a giant load in my throat, I only knew he was cumming when I felt his balls contract for the second time shooting a thick load onto my tongue, he had already coated my throat. He finished and I went to the bathroom to spit and clean up for the second time.
And then there was racer, who had been watching this all pumping his 6 in cock the whole time. I came back from the bathroom and just threw him down on the bed and began blowing him with all the intensity and ferver I had with Ben. At this point my lips hurt like hell but I go to town anyways, he had the perfect size cock for me to deepthroat as well. It only took about 5 minutes and he was bucking too, I had learned my lesson the first time and just played with the frenum with my tongue while playign with his balls and jerking him off. He blew an equally large load all over my face and because of my beard right now it all stuck right where it hit. When he finally stopped cumming and I got to go clean up for the THIRD time, the cum beard I had made me pop a woody right away, I almost jerked off again, but saved it for when I got home ;)
So that was my ridiculous night last night. Shit isnt weird between me and Ben, I got two super hot facials, and now im a slut. A dirty dirty slut. And totally ok with it.
Any more questions? :)
Cheers
Max
Saturday, December 17, 2011
200th Post!!!
Wow this came fast! I feel like My 100th post wasnt all that long ago! Although I have been trying to be better about posting, guess its paying off :) I have been wracking my brain trying to think of something fun I could do, and I think I just thought of something :) Speakupp podcasts are based off of a Q & A type style. SO i'm going to run through about a dozen of my questions, maybe more and I will be going in order of what I have written down so you guys know im not skippng the good ones ;) Also feel free to leave any and all questions you have, I will answer ANY questions today with 100% honesty, but on this post only :) DOn't get me wrong, im honest all the time, I just sometimes with hold small things which I dont feel anyone needs to know haha. But today, I'm an open(er) book :)
What did you want to be when you grew up?
When I was REALLY little I wanted to be a Train engineer, drive the hell outta that train haha. Into high school I wanted to be a chef, i'm a good cook and made some awesome dishes with my friend Jerry, who to this day I have a deal with. If out college career paths poop on use, we are opening a restaurant. But my parents put the kibosh on that pretty quick :( So I went into college thinking either Doctor or Lawyer. While I had drifter from the MD track to genetics, I still contemplate law and going into that for my post undergrad. At this point i'm going to do what I want, I have spent enough time and money doing what other people wanted me to do. Now it's my turn.
How old were you when you figured out you were gay?
I knew when I was about 13 but didn't accept it until my senior year of High School.
What is your favorite TV show?
Probably a tie between House and Moder Family. Actually scratch that, Modern family hahaha
If you had one million dollars what would you do with it?
First, pay off all debt. Second, find my dream house in santa barbara. It's a small three bedroom single level with big kitchen and porch. Good schools for my kids and beautiful site for me and my husband to look at. Third, Fund Speakupp finally and get my baby off the ground. I know I should probably donate some to charity or soething but one mil isnt what it used to be and I want my family's future to be as comfortable as possible. I would probably set aside 80,000 for organizations like speakupp which just need start up money so what happened to me would never happen to them.
What is the hardest thing about being Gay?
In my opinion? it's going through the self discovery of Puberty TWICE. Some people barely make it through the first time, a second can be too much. Its hard to deal with a lot of the things associated with being gay, but that is in my opinion, the most difficult thing although I havent had much of a struggle with it myself.
What do you look for in a partner?
Oh jeez, my laundry list? ugh why am I answering this question. I prefer tall, thats my only physical requirement (although bonus points for business downstairs...) but most importantly its drive. Drive to stay curious about our world and keep learning, to meet new people, see new places. College or some sort of education is a must simply because I have so many things to talk about and I wanna have those in depth conversations that happen once in a blue moon when your drunk with a friend haha. And a cuddler, im a cuddle slut so they better be prepared for way too much hugging and handsi-ness
Favorite place in the world?
Well right now it my parents lake home in McGregor mn they rented when I was little. I would spend every summer there and just fish and relax, reflect upon anything and everything while catching fish and hanging with friends. I miss the stresslessness of there a lot.
Perfect Job?
I was really hoping speakupp would take off because then I would have my perfect job. Working with people to further a good cause, something I made and grew myself, traveling to meet people and expand speakupp, and just talking to people about some of the most intimate things in their lives and their memories. That would be a blast It would never get old. I feel like I would outgrow speakupp eventually, then I would like to move into radio or television like working with the crew of one girl five gays for MTV.
What is the best thing about being gay?
That we as gays are all so different but have one big thing in common. Heterosexual people obviously have the fact that they are hetero in common but they dont deal with the same issues of oppression and equal rights that we do. So I guess the solidarity amongst gays.
When you are on a porn site, what category boxes do you check?
Amateur, cumshot, hardcore (what?! I said im a power bottom lol), masturbation can be hot. Idk sometimes just see whats newest and what has good pictures, its all visual really anyways, right?
Durring sex I wont put _____ in my mouth
Fingers or toes. and poo. thats about all that come to mind lol
Would you ever be in an orgy?
A traditional one? Probably not :/ A bukkake? only if I get to be in the middle ;)
Describe how you bang in ONE word
Enduringly lol
Do you masturbate? If so how often?
Yes, Yes I do. And usually two times a day, sometimes more.
Have you ever been walked in on?
No, thank god. But I know people have listened without me knowing before. Super creepy.
Name a Green thing you love
Marijuana. or this polo I have. NO! Wait, smoking pot while WEARING my green polo. BOOM.
When was the last time you hurt someone?
When my dad and I were arguing because he though I was keeping secrets (which I am, im not out, but he cant force me out I need to do this at my own pace even if he already knows.) And I said he never gives me credit for how hard im working my ass off all the time. And for the first time in about 4 years he said "good job, im proud of you" but followed it up with some story about how he couldnt have done what im doing. I was so angry and bitter I said "Well thats not saying much". Its was very mean and so not in my character to say something like that, only he has the ability ot get under my skin that far and make me feel like im justified in saying things like that. I called him later to apologize I felt so horrible about it.
Favorite first date?
I havent had a good first date yet, I've only really ever been on two first dates and they both blew :( I wanna find a guy who will surprise me a lil. Add that to the list above haha
Sexy librarian vs sexy nurse ?
Sexy Librarian. For sure. Scrubs are hot dont get me wrong, but something about the librarian guy in a sweater just makes me melt lol Give me a doctor and thats a whole different case lol
Last song you listened to?
Avicii- Penguin, check it out!
Ok there is 20 questions, if you want any more answered ask away, I'll answer with 100% honesty. And a big thanks to everyone who has continued to read, this has been a very up and down blog but you guys have stuck through and I appreciate that more than you'll ever know. Much love.
Cheers
Max
What did you want to be when you grew up?
When I was REALLY little I wanted to be a Train engineer, drive the hell outta that train haha. Into high school I wanted to be a chef, i'm a good cook and made some awesome dishes with my friend Jerry, who to this day I have a deal with. If out college career paths poop on use, we are opening a restaurant. But my parents put the kibosh on that pretty quick :( So I went into college thinking either Doctor or Lawyer. While I had drifter from the MD track to genetics, I still contemplate law and going into that for my post undergrad. At this point i'm going to do what I want, I have spent enough time and money doing what other people wanted me to do. Now it's my turn.
How old were you when you figured out you were gay?
I knew when I was about 13 but didn't accept it until my senior year of High School.
What is your favorite TV show?
Probably a tie between House and Moder Family. Actually scratch that, Modern family hahaha
If you had one million dollars what would you do with it?
First, pay off all debt. Second, find my dream house in santa barbara. It's a small three bedroom single level with big kitchen and porch. Good schools for my kids and beautiful site for me and my husband to look at. Third, Fund Speakupp finally and get my baby off the ground. I know I should probably donate some to charity or soething but one mil isnt what it used to be and I want my family's future to be as comfortable as possible. I would probably set aside 80,000 for organizations like speakupp which just need start up money so what happened to me would never happen to them.
What is the hardest thing about being Gay?
In my opinion? it's going through the self discovery of Puberty TWICE. Some people barely make it through the first time, a second can be too much. Its hard to deal with a lot of the things associated with being gay, but that is in my opinion, the most difficult thing although I havent had much of a struggle with it myself.
What do you look for in a partner?
Oh jeez, my laundry list? ugh why am I answering this question. I prefer tall, thats my only physical requirement (although bonus points for business downstairs...) but most importantly its drive. Drive to stay curious about our world and keep learning, to meet new people, see new places. College or some sort of education is a must simply because I have so many things to talk about and I wanna have those in depth conversations that happen once in a blue moon when your drunk with a friend haha. And a cuddler, im a cuddle slut so they better be prepared for way too much hugging and handsi-ness
Favorite place in the world?
Well right now it my parents lake home in McGregor mn they rented when I was little. I would spend every summer there and just fish and relax, reflect upon anything and everything while catching fish and hanging with friends. I miss the stresslessness of there a lot.
Perfect Job?
I was really hoping speakupp would take off because then I would have my perfect job. Working with people to further a good cause, something I made and grew myself, traveling to meet people and expand speakupp, and just talking to people about some of the most intimate things in their lives and their memories. That would be a blast It would never get old. I feel like I would outgrow speakupp eventually, then I would like to move into radio or television like working with the crew of one girl five gays for MTV.
What is the best thing about being gay?
That we as gays are all so different but have one big thing in common. Heterosexual people obviously have the fact that they are hetero in common but they dont deal with the same issues of oppression and equal rights that we do. So I guess the solidarity amongst gays.
When you are on a porn site, what category boxes do you check?
Amateur, cumshot, hardcore (what?! I said im a power bottom lol), masturbation can be hot. Idk sometimes just see whats newest and what has good pictures, its all visual really anyways, right?
Durring sex I wont put _____ in my mouth
Fingers or toes. and poo. thats about all that come to mind lol
Would you ever be in an orgy?
A traditional one? Probably not :/ A bukkake? only if I get to be in the middle ;)
Describe how you bang in ONE word
Enduringly lol
Do you masturbate? If so how often?
Yes, Yes I do. And usually two times a day, sometimes more.
Have you ever been walked in on?
No, thank god. But I know people have listened without me knowing before. Super creepy.
Name a Green thing you love
Marijuana. or this polo I have. NO! Wait, smoking pot while WEARING my green polo. BOOM.
When was the last time you hurt someone?
When my dad and I were arguing because he though I was keeping secrets (which I am, im not out, but he cant force me out I need to do this at my own pace even if he already knows.) And I said he never gives me credit for how hard im working my ass off all the time. And for the first time in about 4 years he said "good job, im proud of you" but followed it up with some story about how he couldnt have done what im doing. I was so angry and bitter I said "Well thats not saying much". Its was very mean and so not in my character to say something like that, only he has the ability ot get under my skin that far and make me feel like im justified in saying things like that. I called him later to apologize I felt so horrible about it.
Favorite first date?
I havent had a good first date yet, I've only really ever been on two first dates and they both blew :( I wanna find a guy who will surprise me a lil. Add that to the list above haha
Sexy librarian vs sexy nurse ?
Sexy Librarian. For sure. Scrubs are hot dont get me wrong, but something about the librarian guy in a sweater just makes me melt lol Give me a doctor and thats a whole different case lol
Last song you listened to?
Avicii- Penguin, check it out!
Ok there is 20 questions, if you want any more answered ask away, I'll answer with 100% honesty. And a big thanks to everyone who has continued to read, this has been a very up and down blog but you guys have stuck through and I appreciate that more than you'll ever know. Much love.
Cheers
Max
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Finally an Explaination
So I have been working on a good way to explain Speakupp's mission, and this is what I came up with. Please critique and follow up if you wish!
This isn’t just an Internet site; this is the digital human rights movement in action. Speakupp is a GLBTQ outreach site with the purpose of providing valuable advice and relationships with people who may not have that luxury where they live. This project is starting in the prairie plains of North Dakota, a hotbed for religious fervor and a reputation for low tolerance of ideas which challenge their accepted norms. We aim to show the region and the hiding masses of GLBTQ individuals that it is not all right to be oppressed to such a level. On May 22nd 1978, Harvey Milk initiated his tenure with a gay rights bill protecting homosexuals from discrimination within San Francisco. To this day nothing like that has ever passed in North Dakota legislature. I hope this puts into perspective the political climate here in Nd for GLBTQ people.
What this project provides is answers to questions, and the chance at a true online community where people of any color, sexual identity, gender, and religion can meet and listen to each other’s story. Being queer and coming to terms with it is comparable to going through puberty twice. The first time being a physical and morphological change from prepubescent to an adult, whereas the second time is learning the sexual ropes all over again, the societal expectations and pressures of finding someone you can love and share the rest of your life with. In the first round of puberty you are still in school and there is tremendous support not only by our schools but also the comfort of having everyone else around you going through the same thing. Don’t misunderstand me, it is not an easy time for any person, but there is strength in numbers. But sexual discovery can happen at any time, it depends on the person and on top of that if you are isolated, all alone and trying to figure out who you are while your heterosexual peers are moving on with their lives, finding life partners and settling down. We can only look on in jealousy as we try to find out who we truly are and what we want from our lives.
Our podcast and videos provide someone to talk with, the 20-25 minute podcast is conducted by me and is essentially a question and answer with discussion on every point. The questions range from “What’s your favorite Green thing?” to “Would you ever consider participating in an orgy?”. It takes a very confident and aware individual to answer questions like this candidly but what my hope is, is that when you alternate between slightly off and interesting questions and personal questions, that person doesn’t have time to refer to their premade script of what they are SUPPOSED to say according to their mask. Instead you catch them off guard and get to see a glimmer of what kind of person they truly are. These sparks of identity and honesty are the basis of any relationship and what I hope to show the world. We aren’t monsters, God does not hate us, and we are merely people just like you. These sparks are what makes the relationship between a contributor and the GLBTQ consumer possible, they will ingest these interesting facts and identify the trust put forward by the contributor and are willing to reinvest their trust by coming back, seeing how they are doing and what new experiences they have had, what they are willing to share with someone they have never seen.
This, however, is only our main goal. Another more overarching goal we hope to achieve is to educate and reform the image the GLBTQ community has in this nation. The image of our community has arisen primarily from mass media and the portrayal of being gay that has been set forward. Characters like Jack from “Will and Grace” and Kurt from “Glee”, although a huge leap to even be in mass media, portray a extremely small portion of the range of people whom identify as gay or queer. But unfortunately people think that these characters are based off some stereotypical truth and are remembered for when they judge the next gay guy who walks by. These people are the norm with which they compare every other homosexual they encounter. But this image issue doesn’t just affect how heterosexuals view homosexuals, but also how we view ourselves. Gays will start emulating things they see just as people emulate fashion, and this is not a good way to build character, you need to define yourself without the pressure of societal norms before you look on and judge others.
Another example of misidentification of the gay community is OUT! Magazine, a gay advocacy magazine targeted towards specifically Gay and Lesbian people but is read but everyone under the sexual rainbow. On the cover of this magazine is supposed to be a GLBTQ of importance, or at least you would think. Instead 9 times out of 10 it is a straight, white, shirtless man whom we are all familiar with in mass media. Ryan Reynolds, Matthew McConaughey, and Chord Overstreet are a few of the men who have been featured in this Gay magazine. But they are all straight. And white. And Guys!! This is a magazine which claims to advocate for the GLBTQ community and give a gay perspective on many faucets of culture as we know it. But again they give a very narrow field to vision, seen through the eyes of few to represent many. Speakupp is, I believe, one of the first resources for the GLBTQ community which represents as many facets of our community as possible while encouraging activism, open dialogue, and speaking up.
This project has huge potential to change the way people both inside and outside of the gay community view themselves as a whole. This project promises to reach out to rural GLBTQ, change the image we hold of our community, and attempt to integrate itself into the great nation as a whole instead of being the exclusive club which it appears to be to many today. You don’t need to be GLBT or Q in order to be part of the community, you simply have to support basic human rights and identify the injustices passed upon the community by the greater nation as a whole. Its true, it is getting better, but it could be a whole lot better already by simply speaking up.
Below are some links to Speakupp resources and its work thus far. The site is in construction and is always looking for more people to share their stories and perspectives with us:
Facebook group with most of our contributors added:
http://www.facebook.com/groups/320975667929155/
Speakupp Blog to help recruit and spread or message:
http://theofficialspeakupp.blogspot.com/
This isn’t just an Internet site; this is the digital human rights movement in action. Speakupp is a GLBTQ outreach site with the purpose of providing valuable advice and relationships with people who may not have that luxury where they live. This project is starting in the prairie plains of North Dakota, a hotbed for religious fervor and a reputation for low tolerance of ideas which challenge their accepted norms. We aim to show the region and the hiding masses of GLBTQ individuals that it is not all right to be oppressed to such a level. On May 22nd 1978, Harvey Milk initiated his tenure with a gay rights bill protecting homosexuals from discrimination within San Francisco. To this day nothing like that has ever passed in North Dakota legislature. I hope this puts into perspective the political climate here in Nd for GLBTQ people.
What this project provides is answers to questions, and the chance at a true online community where people of any color, sexual identity, gender, and religion can meet and listen to each other’s story. Being queer and coming to terms with it is comparable to going through puberty twice. The first time being a physical and morphological change from prepubescent to an adult, whereas the second time is learning the sexual ropes all over again, the societal expectations and pressures of finding someone you can love and share the rest of your life with. In the first round of puberty you are still in school and there is tremendous support not only by our schools but also the comfort of having everyone else around you going through the same thing. Don’t misunderstand me, it is not an easy time for any person, but there is strength in numbers. But sexual discovery can happen at any time, it depends on the person and on top of that if you are isolated, all alone and trying to figure out who you are while your heterosexual peers are moving on with their lives, finding life partners and settling down. We can only look on in jealousy as we try to find out who we truly are and what we want from our lives.
Our podcast and videos provide someone to talk with, the 20-25 minute podcast is conducted by me and is essentially a question and answer with discussion on every point. The questions range from “What’s your favorite Green thing?” to “Would you ever consider participating in an orgy?”. It takes a very confident and aware individual to answer questions like this candidly but what my hope is, is that when you alternate between slightly off and interesting questions and personal questions, that person doesn’t have time to refer to their premade script of what they are SUPPOSED to say according to their mask. Instead you catch them off guard and get to see a glimmer of what kind of person they truly are. These sparks of identity and honesty are the basis of any relationship and what I hope to show the world. We aren’t monsters, God does not hate us, and we are merely people just like you. These sparks are what makes the relationship between a contributor and the GLBTQ consumer possible, they will ingest these interesting facts and identify the trust put forward by the contributor and are willing to reinvest their trust by coming back, seeing how they are doing and what new experiences they have had, what they are willing to share with someone they have never seen.
This, however, is only our main goal. Another more overarching goal we hope to achieve is to educate and reform the image the GLBTQ community has in this nation. The image of our community has arisen primarily from mass media and the portrayal of being gay that has been set forward. Characters like Jack from “Will and Grace” and Kurt from “Glee”, although a huge leap to even be in mass media, portray a extremely small portion of the range of people whom identify as gay or queer. But unfortunately people think that these characters are based off some stereotypical truth and are remembered for when they judge the next gay guy who walks by. These people are the norm with which they compare every other homosexual they encounter. But this image issue doesn’t just affect how heterosexuals view homosexuals, but also how we view ourselves. Gays will start emulating things they see just as people emulate fashion, and this is not a good way to build character, you need to define yourself without the pressure of societal norms before you look on and judge others.
Another example of misidentification of the gay community is OUT! Magazine, a gay advocacy magazine targeted towards specifically Gay and Lesbian people but is read but everyone under the sexual rainbow. On the cover of this magazine is supposed to be a GLBTQ of importance, or at least you would think. Instead 9 times out of 10 it is a straight, white, shirtless man whom we are all familiar with in mass media. Ryan Reynolds, Matthew McConaughey, and Chord Overstreet are a few of the men who have been featured in this Gay magazine. But they are all straight. And white. And Guys!! This is a magazine which claims to advocate for the GLBTQ community and give a gay perspective on many faucets of culture as we know it. But again they give a very narrow field to vision, seen through the eyes of few to represent many. Speakupp is, I believe, one of the first resources for the GLBTQ community which represents as many facets of our community as possible while encouraging activism, open dialogue, and speaking up.
This project has huge potential to change the way people both inside and outside of the gay community view themselves as a whole. This project promises to reach out to rural GLBTQ, change the image we hold of our community, and attempt to integrate itself into the great nation as a whole instead of being the exclusive club which it appears to be to many today. You don’t need to be GLBT or Q in order to be part of the community, you simply have to support basic human rights and identify the injustices passed upon the community by the greater nation as a whole. Its true, it is getting better, but it could be a whole lot better already by simply speaking up.
Below are some links to Speakupp resources and its work thus far. The site is in construction and is always looking for more people to share their stories and perspectives with us:
Facebook group with most of our contributors added:
http://www.facebook.com/groups/320975667929155/
Speakupp Blog to help recruit and spread or message:
http://theofficialspeakupp.blogspot.com/
Little Guilt
So I have finally used grindr for what its supposed to be used for, rare I know. The kid is in my major so he knows all about genetics and bio and stuff like that, hes in my year and a total cutey, and as it tuns out pretty good in the sack. But what I feel guilty about it the fact that he was a VIRGIN. He didnt tell me until after and I gelt guilty about it because had I known I would have made it a lil more special, but he was so good I would have never known. It was a good night haha
He had been hitting me up on grindr for about a week now so we now roughly who eachother was. He is shy and reserved so when he offered to come over tonight I was caught a little off gaurd but took it as a good sign and had him over. We decided to watch grindhouse death proof and didnt make it too far into the movie before we started making out. My only tip this kid was inexperienced was the way he kissed. God awful. For some reason people can learn how to give amazing head from watching pronos but cant learn kissing. He pecked a lot, kissed really fast, and apparently wasnt a fan of tongue. But beyond that, no complaint, he was very good.
I of course went down on him first haha but he gave dome like a champ, some of the best i've ever gotten. And for the first time in my life I flip fucked. Where someone starts topping but ends bottoming (me) and vice a versa. I havent topped since my first time because usually people cant handle me but after I fingered him a lil he opened up just fine and took it like a champ. Even my ex had trouble and never really let me top. We tried a few diff positions and then I let him fuck me, and he was freaking great. Really got me going, wishing i was on top again. I blew a load like I havent in a long time, it got in my hair lol and as soon as he saw that he jumped on his back and started jerking off while i played with his balls and soon I could feel them contract as he shot FIVE huge jets onto his chest, I had run and grab a towel because it was threatening to run off his chest and onto the bed. I kinda wish I had gulped it all down but considering I need to be tested and havent been since the last guy I would curb my enthusiasm.
After we had both finished we cleaned up a little and cuddled and watched the whole rest of the movie with him snuggled on my chest, occasionally looking up and giving me a few more quick pecks before watching the movie again. It was all in all a good night. Hope you guys dont mind reading a lil about my sex-capades!
cheers
Max
He had been hitting me up on grindr for about a week now so we now roughly who eachother was. He is shy and reserved so when he offered to come over tonight I was caught a little off gaurd but took it as a good sign and had him over. We decided to watch grindhouse death proof and didnt make it too far into the movie before we started making out. My only tip this kid was inexperienced was the way he kissed. God awful. For some reason people can learn how to give amazing head from watching pronos but cant learn kissing. He pecked a lot, kissed really fast, and apparently wasnt a fan of tongue. But beyond that, no complaint, he was very good.
I of course went down on him first haha but he gave dome like a champ, some of the best i've ever gotten. And for the first time in my life I flip fucked. Where someone starts topping but ends bottoming (me) and vice a versa. I havent topped since my first time because usually people cant handle me but after I fingered him a lil he opened up just fine and took it like a champ. Even my ex had trouble and never really let me top. We tried a few diff positions and then I let him fuck me, and he was freaking great. Really got me going, wishing i was on top again. I blew a load like I havent in a long time, it got in my hair lol and as soon as he saw that he jumped on his back and started jerking off while i played with his balls and soon I could feel them contract as he shot FIVE huge jets onto his chest, I had run and grab a towel because it was threatening to run off his chest and onto the bed. I kinda wish I had gulped it all down but considering I need to be tested and havent been since the last guy I would curb my enthusiasm.
After we had both finished we cleaned up a little and cuddled and watched the whole rest of the movie with him snuggled on my chest, occasionally looking up and giving me a few more quick pecks before watching the movie again. It was all in all a good night. Hope you guys dont mind reading a lil about my sex-capades!
cheers
Max
Monday, December 12, 2011
Life Choices
Every decision we make has a "line" that when it is crossed perhaps its time to questions those decisions. Its the make-it-or-break-it this-or-nothing line. Well this speakupp thing has brought a few of these lines into my perspective. The first being, is speakupp worth doing? I mean it has great inertia but its going to be a lot of work and maybe it isnt. This one, although thought about, doesnt mean the most to me right now. I do believe the project has validity im just not going to be able to hit our april release date like I had hoped. Sad but I can recover from it.
The bigger question is: Is this a city and school I want to pay to stay in anymore? And the more I look the more I realize the people and the price point of the university are the only things keeping me here. Dont get me wrong, the people who I am here for are wonderful, but I'd be so much happier somewhere else. Somewhere gay-er (at least more friendly) and with more gays whom feel the same way as me. This town is sucking me dry, my batteries arent as recharged after breaks as they used to and its because I have to come back HERE. On top of that my school has been actively FUCKING both my academic and social lives. The chem department here is abominable and now with this Speakupp bullshit I cant justify spending my money at a university like this when they come back and treat me like this. This place is not geared towards my major or anything like it and has been generally inhospitable. I know people complain about their work or school but I also feel like I do it more than the norm, like I may behaving greater issues than the normal "just a number" people will feel when at university.
So im applying to a few places, U of M both twin cities and Duluth, and University of Wisconson Madison and Eau Claire. Duluth is my first pick, followed by Eau Clair, twin cities, and Madison. I like madison and visited there after high school but its more money and farther away so its last on the list. Duluth I love due to the area and the scenic beauty but also the school is super legit, its mostly underground so you dont have to deal with the cold and it is an all around reputable school. I have a couple friends whom go to school there and they both say they love it so I think I would fit in well there. I guess we'll see where it all goes! Finals week is of course stressful, this is my little break for the day then back to the grind, but manageable since I only have two final exams, the others are simple partfolios or written finals. I hope everyone else is doing well and I'll post more soon.
Cheers
Max
The bigger question is: Is this a city and school I want to pay to stay in anymore? And the more I look the more I realize the people and the price point of the university are the only things keeping me here. Dont get me wrong, the people who I am here for are wonderful, but I'd be so much happier somewhere else. Somewhere gay-er (at least more friendly) and with more gays whom feel the same way as me. This town is sucking me dry, my batteries arent as recharged after breaks as they used to and its because I have to come back HERE. On top of that my school has been actively FUCKING both my academic and social lives. The chem department here is abominable and now with this Speakupp bullshit I cant justify spending my money at a university like this when they come back and treat me like this. This place is not geared towards my major or anything like it and has been generally inhospitable. I know people complain about their work or school but I also feel like I do it more than the norm, like I may behaving greater issues than the normal "just a number" people will feel when at university.
So im applying to a few places, U of M both twin cities and Duluth, and University of Wisconson Madison and Eau Claire. Duluth is my first pick, followed by Eau Clair, twin cities, and Madison. I like madison and visited there after high school but its more money and farther away so its last on the list. Duluth I love due to the area and the scenic beauty but also the school is super legit, its mostly underground so you dont have to deal with the cold and it is an all around reputable school. I have a couple friends whom go to school there and they both say they love it so I think I would fit in well there. I guess we'll see where it all goes! Finals week is of course stressful, this is my little break for the day then back to the grind, but manageable since I only have two final exams, the others are simple partfolios or written finals. I hope everyone else is doing well and I'll post more soon.
Cheers
Max
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Well this just sucks
SCFC, the organization in charge of publication funding, has rescinded their grant money officially today. They, and the student senate, send their "Sincerest condolences" about crushing this project in their money grubbing hands. The amount I was asking for wasn't even HALF my own tuition cost but this process was brought against me to protect the university from abuse of student fee's. I will be looking for funding but at this time I have no choice but to suspend out April release date. We are now 3 and a half months behind with no money so now grants and scholarships are the name of the game, we need cash to get this thing off the ground so any ideas at all on how we can move forward would be wonderful. I'm sorry this has happened, I should have been more prepared for what the university would react like and could not stop them from working us out. Sitting in that conference room listening to them discuss the fate of our project was the hardest thing to do and the worst part was, I could do nothing about it. I hope you will all forgive me. Please have a great finals week as that approaches, and drive safely over the holidays.
Cheers
Max Maltese
I now have finals, and final papers and partfolio's to finish. I'm stressed and depressed beyond belief. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm applying to some different universities. I can't stay here and lead a productive life. I hate my life right now. I dont know what to do. Help.
Cheers
Max Maltese
I now have finals, and final papers and partfolio's to finish. I'm stressed and depressed beyond belief. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm applying to some different universities. I can't stay here and lead a productive life. I hate my life right now. I dont know what to do. Help.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Destroyed
Despite everything going well, and everything being signed and passed, the university has pulled my funding for speakupp. Im crushed. And defeated. And with finals and work I dont have much time to petition this decision. Not only that but that sets us backa tremendous amount of time, time I should be using to generate content. I can't do anything really until after break now. I hate my life right now. And I hate this school for fucking with me and then taking away everything. Fuckkk idk what to do. This could kill the project. I'm so destroyed right now. fuck.
Sunday, December 4, 2011
An Interesting Night
Last night was interesting because I actually made some friends, or something like that. But I have to back track a tad just to get y'all caught up. I think I met a really good guy. We met over grindr but I have seen him on Manhunt before. He has a similar bio to mine so hes looking for a relationship. I just never messaged him on manhunt because to be honest hes really good looking and 6' 7", so finally a guy taller than I am! He messaged me and we got to talking and he is an extremely nice guy! hes a hair older than me at 22 but a year and a half is not a big gap. We ended up talking on the phone for about 2 hours and hit it off really well so we might be meeting this coming friday down in Fargo! I really hope he can make it because I want to meet him pretty badly, but if not he'll be in the cities in the same town i live in!! So we are definitely meeting this month for sure but im hoping really hard that it is this week, to be honest I really wanna meet him sooner. I just have to make sure I dont smother him. Yet I digress back to my original goal of this post.
Last night was interesting because I made some new friends! There was this kid, we'll call him Chris, who came into the store. At first he was really quiet but I was sitting out at the counter working on homework and we ended up chatting a bit and it turns out he's a really cool guy. Hes a hair younger than me and not going to school right now but he is one of the ost genuine and honest guys I have met in a long time. He is unfortunately straight but still a really awesome kid, I look forward to burning with him in the future. I just feel bad because he wanted to hang out right away and like a jerk I have to go and be super fucking busy all the time. Hopefully next weekend we can hang out and chill and talk music, which we have really similar tastes in.
Also last night I met a homostoner, which is a rare event indeed. Actually when I think about it I met three homostoners which is unprecedented. The first was a cute guy named Matt, he has curly hair and the total cute hipster look going. We made eyes at eachother a lot and I gave him my number. At first when I picked up on him I was just going to let him go without it because I'm kinda saving myself for this new guy but I thought "what the hell" nothing is written in stone yet and maybe it'll just be really cool to have a homostoner friend! Of course I gave it to him and he swaggered out to make sure his cute little dog didnt tear up the car, but texted me right away haha so when I have time i'll be hanging out with him too! The other two homostoners were a lesbian couple that are 27 years apart in age. I recruited them for speakupp because they live close and are so cute, plus I havent been able to get any older gays in on the podcast yet so it'll be good for the diversity of the site :)
All in all an interesting night at the headshop, only thing now Is I wish people would tip about 3 bucks more and I can afford nachos from next door...yum
Cheers
Max
Last night was interesting because I made some new friends! There was this kid, we'll call him Chris, who came into the store. At first he was really quiet but I was sitting out at the counter working on homework and we ended up chatting a bit and it turns out he's a really cool guy. Hes a hair younger than me and not going to school right now but he is one of the ost genuine and honest guys I have met in a long time. He is unfortunately straight but still a really awesome kid, I look forward to burning with him in the future. I just feel bad because he wanted to hang out right away and like a jerk I have to go and be super fucking busy all the time. Hopefully next weekend we can hang out and chill and talk music, which we have really similar tastes in.
Also last night I met a homostoner, which is a rare event indeed. Actually when I think about it I met three homostoners which is unprecedented. The first was a cute guy named Matt, he has curly hair and the total cute hipster look going. We made eyes at eachother a lot and I gave him my number. At first when I picked up on him I was just going to let him go without it because I'm kinda saving myself for this new guy but I thought "what the hell" nothing is written in stone yet and maybe it'll just be really cool to have a homostoner friend! Of course I gave it to him and he swaggered out to make sure his cute little dog didnt tear up the car, but texted me right away haha so when I have time i'll be hanging out with him too! The other two homostoners were a lesbian couple that are 27 years apart in age. I recruited them for speakupp because they live close and are so cute, plus I havent been able to get any older gays in on the podcast yet so it'll be good for the diversity of the site :)
All in all an interesting night at the headshop, only thing now Is I wish people would tip about 3 bucks more and I can afford nachos from next door...yum
Cheers
Max
Perspective
In my previous post, I talked about drug use and the decision. Although brief I said "They made the decision. Period." But this comment I received puts things into a ver different light:
"Max, there is another perspective to consider that may not have occurred to you, and didn't to me until I had been practicing medicine for a while, is that many people who use drugs are mentally ill (and were before they started using) and are treating their symptoms with the drugs. What I see the most is young men who have been using or abusing marijuana or alcohol daily or near daily since they were teens. When I talk to them about why they use and their life in general, it quickly becomes obvious that they have an anxiety disorder, less commonly another mental illness. As one patient taught me, he couldn't make it through a day in school or at his job without marijuana to treat his anxiety. But it is easier to use marijuana than to admit that you have a mental illness, and much cheaper to buy marijuana than to afford a psychiatrist and prescription meds. So partially our drug problem in this country is due to our lack of nationalized healthcare for our people.
Yeah, meth and the harder drugs are different, but still many of the users were mentally ill first and drugs users later."
When you look at why most people use drugs, it is a form of self medication. And while I agree with the medicating for anxiety and mental disorder, I feel marijuana as a softer drug does not pertain to greatly to this with the exception of anxiety. I have heard quite a bit about how people will use cannabis in order to calm nerves and such and as a proponent of marijuana legalization I have nothing to comment on this, its your call and it is probably cheaper than prescription meds would be. But the Meth up here is to prevalent, to invasive to be a symptom of metal disorder and distress. If that is the case then I don't believe even universal healthcare could pull this poor dump out of its downward spiral. Starting today i'm going to keep a running tally of the oil burners we sell (those being the glass pipes used to consume methamphetamine), to put into perspective how prevalent meth is in this area. It may stun you. I thank Green and Purple for commenting what he did, its fun to have someone not only comment but correct/challenge my views and statements! If nobody did I would probably end up saying the most ridiculous things just to keep you guys interested ;) Hope your all having a good day!!
Cheers
Max
"Max, there is another perspective to consider that may not have occurred to you, and didn't to me until I had been practicing medicine for a while, is that many people who use drugs are mentally ill (and were before they started using) and are treating their symptoms with the drugs. What I see the most is young men who have been using or abusing marijuana or alcohol daily or near daily since they were teens. When I talk to them about why they use and their life in general, it quickly becomes obvious that they have an anxiety disorder, less commonly another mental illness. As one patient taught me, he couldn't make it through a day in school or at his job without marijuana to treat his anxiety. But it is easier to use marijuana than to admit that you have a mental illness, and much cheaper to buy marijuana than to afford a psychiatrist and prescription meds. So partially our drug problem in this country is due to our lack of nationalized healthcare for our people.
Yeah, meth and the harder drugs are different, but still many of the users were mentally ill first and drugs users later."
When you look at why most people use drugs, it is a form of self medication. And while I agree with the medicating for anxiety and mental disorder, I feel marijuana as a softer drug does not pertain to greatly to this with the exception of anxiety. I have heard quite a bit about how people will use cannabis in order to calm nerves and such and as a proponent of marijuana legalization I have nothing to comment on this, its your call and it is probably cheaper than prescription meds would be. But the Meth up here is to prevalent, to invasive to be a symptom of metal disorder and distress. If that is the case then I don't believe even universal healthcare could pull this poor dump out of its downward spiral. Starting today i'm going to keep a running tally of the oil burners we sell (those being the glass pipes used to consume methamphetamine), to put into perspective how prevalent meth is in this area. It may stun you. I thank Green and Purple for commenting what he did, its fun to have someone not only comment but correct/challenge my views and statements! If nobody did I would probably end up saying the most ridiculous things just to keep you guys interested ;) Hope your all having a good day!!
Cheers
Max
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Interesante
I have to day, working at a head shop is probably the best job ever. I know I dont talk about my job much, mostly because even though it is chill, its still a job and when im not doing retail-y things like restocking shelves im studying. But some of the people who come through here are real winners, I wish I could take some pictures kind of like the people of walmart site (If you have not checked it out you have to, its a great way to kill a little time. Anyways here are a couple of my favorite things that happen here:
It is far from a steady flow of people so I get to chill in back and
study quite a bit. Although I find myself saying "I'm at work! Why work harder?" Which is a terrible mind set and now im woefully behind in my school work with the final week of classes coming up next week I need to get to work, I work 24 hours this weekend so time to get my butt in gear!! As you can see we got a fooseball table (Sp?), some weights, a punching bag, tv, couches and a chair. Just the equivalent of a really chill bachelor pad which is essentially what it is.
Occasionally a girl from the restraunt next door will come over here and drop off a sandwich which they made a mistake on, those are always the best days cause it's a little taco joint called the Red Pepper. Its a pretty famous place in grand forks, known for great drunk munchies. Its a typical college joint, every college town has a place like this. SO when they do make a mistake they go big haha last one I got was a zep with taco meant, ham, cheese, lettuce and a white sauce they make in house Yum!
But the best part is the people, of course you have some tweakers comet through here, it may come as a surprise to those on the coasts but meth is far more prevalent here than you imagine. We sell these awful little things called "oil burners", thats legal speak for a crack pipe. They cost us about .45 cents
a piece but we sell them according to size, 6,8,and 11 dollars. And we sell a lot of them. Work here long enough and you can identify who is in the store to get one. They are the people who don't linger, they come in with what you first assume is a purpose or a mission because they cruise to the counter where we keep them and hail you over right away to pull something out. But this is a little misleading, its not a mission they're on, they're ashamed. As they should be. Its meth. The end of your life for most, the last drug you'll ever do or want to do. It's sad to watch and even weirder to deal with them.
If they are tweaking too hard we are supposed to ask them to leave, but I usually dont just because, even though im 6'5" tall, I dont want to take on a drug addled meth head. They can be absolutely nuts. They're usually either friendly or silent, but its always a feeling of dread wrapping one up for someone because you know what its going to be used for, you know they are killing themselves. Its especially weird when someone who hasnt been smoking it long comes in, always normal looking and usually they still have their spring in their step. It doesnt last long and you see the drug take hold. Why do I still sell them? Because they had a choice, and they made their decision. End of story.
But besides that group there are two types of people who come in, the non functioning stoner and the functioning stoner. The first is easily identifiable by nasty clothes, cig smell, and a general lack of decorum. They dont listen when you say "Don't say bong" because its called a "water pipe" here (walking that fine line pretty hard if I say so myself). And eventually you have to kick one or two of the out, they always act hurt and bummed but show up the next day anyways. They wanna touch everything but rarely buy anything. And they think they're your best friend because they assume you smoke pot.
I guess now would be the time for me to address the smoking thing before I go on to the functional stoner. I like to smoke, I do and I'm willing to admit it. But I know where my priorities are and I know school and speakupp are first, fun later. So I very rarely smoke during the week and when I do smoke on the weekends its usually a bowl or two with some buddies while I'm kicking it with them. I'm not one of those joint a day guys who need it to operate normally.
The functional stoner (like myself) Gets shit done but still enjoys themselves. The know how to balance the fun and responsibilities of life. Of course the legal status of marijuana provides an interesting twist in the functional stoners life, he has to doge the law when it gets in his way. I personally never carry stuff, if I do its only in Mn and its under 4 grams. That in mn is equivalent to a parking ticket. But in North Dakota? Marijuana is a higher scheduled drug than meth, Marijuana is a class AA drug carrying a felony status at under half an oz. That means marijuana is more illegal to posses and smoke than meth, heroine, and cocaine. Fuck us, right?
So thats my job, dealing with some of the best and worst of the community up here in the barren tundra. In the course of me writing this post, a woman came in with here three young children and I had to ask her to leave because under 18 means under 18 even with a parent. She got really angry and yelled at me calling me "Un American"...yeah, ok. But on the bright side, these stoner kids are some of the hottest guys. The guy who just came in was wearing sweats, a hoodie and one of those ball caps to hold back his longish hair. Cute face and a bangin bod and chill enough to hang out and chat for a bit. I love my job :)
It is far from a steady flow of people so I get to chill in back and
Occasionally a girl from the restraunt next door will come over here and drop off a sandwich which they made a mistake on, those are always the best days cause it's a little taco joint called the Red Pepper. Its a pretty famous place in grand forks, known for great drunk munchies. Its a typical college joint, every college town has a place like this. SO when they do make a mistake they go big haha last one I got was a zep with taco meant, ham, cheese, lettuce and a white sauce they make in house Yum!
But the best part is the people, of course you have some tweakers comet through here, it may come as a surprise to those on the coasts but meth is far more prevalent here than you imagine. We sell these awful little things called "oil burners", thats legal speak for a crack pipe. They cost us about .45 cents
If they are tweaking too hard we are supposed to ask them to leave, but I usually dont just because, even though im 6'5" tall, I dont want to take on a drug addled meth head. They can be absolutely nuts. They're usually either friendly or silent, but its always a feeling of dread wrapping one up for someone because you know what its going to be used for, you know they are killing themselves. Its especially weird when someone who hasnt been smoking it long comes in, always normal looking and usually they still have their spring in their step. It doesnt last long and you see the drug take hold. Why do I still sell them? Because they had a choice, and they made their decision. End of story.
But besides that group there are two types of people who come in, the non functioning stoner and the functioning stoner. The first is easily identifiable by nasty clothes, cig smell, and a general lack of decorum. They dont listen when you say "Don't say bong" because its called a "water pipe" here (walking that fine line pretty hard if I say so myself). And eventually you have to kick one or two of the out, they always act hurt and bummed but show up the next day anyways. They wanna touch everything but rarely buy anything. And they think they're your best friend because they assume you smoke pot.
I guess now would be the time for me to address the smoking thing before I go on to the functional stoner. I like to smoke, I do and I'm willing to admit it. But I know where my priorities are and I know school and speakupp are first, fun later. So I very rarely smoke during the week and when I do smoke on the weekends its usually a bowl or two with some buddies while I'm kicking it with them. I'm not one of those joint a day guys who need it to operate normally.
The functional stoner (like myself) Gets shit done but still enjoys themselves. The know how to balance the fun and responsibilities of life. Of course the legal status of marijuana provides an interesting twist in the functional stoners life, he has to doge the law when it gets in his way. I personally never carry stuff, if I do its only in Mn and its under 4 grams. That in mn is equivalent to a parking ticket. But in North Dakota? Marijuana is a higher scheduled drug than meth, Marijuana is a class AA drug carrying a felony status at under half an oz. That means marijuana is more illegal to posses and smoke than meth, heroine, and cocaine. Fuck us, right?
So thats my job, dealing with some of the best and worst of the community up here in the barren tundra. In the course of me writing this post, a woman came in with here three young children and I had to ask her to leave because under 18 means under 18 even with a parent. She got really angry and yelled at me calling me "Un American"...yeah, ok. But on the bright side, these stoner kids are some of the hottest guys. The guy who just came in was wearing sweats, a hoodie and one of those ball caps to hold back his longish hair. Cute face and a bangin bod and chill enough to hang out and chat for a bit. I love my job :)
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Why that'll only be happening once
Well here's the deal with the one time only thing, there is a lot of baggage this guy has, zee has been married twice now. Hes 22. He does drag (Why do drag queens love me?!!?!) which isnt a turn off for me but the sewn in extentions were kinda weird. He used to do meth. He smokes cigs. He's going to school for professional hair cutting. He has two children, with the same names as Will Smiths...I mean none of these things are a personal grudge its just not something I'm interested in. But the names? wow
He had their names tattooed on his back thats how I found out they were jaden and willow...ey ey ey. I just dont see WANTING anything besides sex from him and thats just not fair to anyone, ya know? Hope you guys dont hate me, but the sex was REALLY good haha
Cheers
Max
He had their names tattooed on his back thats how I found out they were jaden and willow...ey ey ey. I just dont see WANTING anything besides sex from him and thats just not fair to anyone, ya know? Hope you guys dont hate me, but the sex was REALLY good haha
Cheers
Max
Smutty
This post contains content not recommended for anyone under the age 18, you have been warned.
SO yeah, I have heard from more than one person that the occasional post of my sexapades has been rather entertaining, i think its because I dont post them all that much that they end up so liked haha. Or maybe i'm just good at writing, but thats not too likely. But yes, After about an 8 month dry spell I FINALLY got laid. Finally. I should preface that I will NOT be sleeping with this person again, he is nice and wants more like I do but when baggage starts dumping out, Its not something I can handle a lot fo right now, but I will post more about that in a different post, this is just the fun stuff :)
We'll call him Zee, hes a white guy, 23, and a little shorter than I am (Im a tall mofo at 6'5") with long hair and a cute smile. He has snake bite piercing and a tongue stud, a tattoo on his back and on his upper arm which looked really hot. He had a banging bod, tight abs and decent arms. And his dick? Beautiful
We met on manhunt and had been talking for awhile, he was really nice and genuine, we talked a lot about how he was going to school and just looking for fun but would like something more. And he was 420 friendly, always a plus :) So I invited him over to snuggle and he actually said yes. Now I'm very upfront about my body since its pretty much my one point of self degradation I have. I am working out and with my limited budget I eat less and have been trimming down but im still not happy with it. So he knew I was a cub, with fuzz and all and came anyways which made me very happy :) He got to my place and we chatted for awhile and introduced eachother to our pieces. He didnt name his whic i thought was weird but we were hitting it off pretty well! So we decided to watch a movie, he picked black swan.
I am going to go out on a limb and say maybe a darren aronovski movie isnt the best cuddle movie but it didnt matter much since we didnt spend much time watching the movie haha. We cuddled for about 30% of the movie which turned into us making out and rolling around slowly stripping eachother. The rush of unbuttoning his pants made my fingers tremble a bit, but with the pressure that was behind it they popped right open. We rolled around some more in just our boxers, just letting our hips grind together, he would run his nails down my back once in a while and I would shudder, it was really hot. After he did that a few times I couldnt wait any longer. I grabbed his hips, picked him up and sat him up so I could rip off his boxers and see his glorious junk. It stood rigidly at attention and throbbed in front of me as i tenderly licked that sensitive area between his balls and thigh, he writhed and moaned and I hadnt even touched his dick yet.
Then I took as much as I could down my throat, he had to be a good at least 8 inches and decently thick. His sack was loose around his balls and fell between his legs it was so relaxed, but full. Finally I needed a breather and he rolled me over and started going down on me and I have to say, I usually hate head but he was so good at it ( I think his tongue stud had something to do with it) I had to ask him to stop because I couldnt stop from kicking at the sheets. It was some fuckin intense head. Finally after nibbling on his neck and collarbone I asked him to fuck me.
I rolled a condom on and pulled it all the way to the base, using up all of the condom with a hair of space at the base of his cock. I took it on my back, At first I was afraid we were going to need some lube but he went slow until he was completely in. Oh god, it felt so good. It has been too long and someone that big hurts just a little at first but very quickly that chill of pleasure hits every nerve in your body and you just relax and enjoy it. Now something you guys might not know about me is I don't do slow very well, in fact if I'm bottoming I want to be POUNDED. I love that feeling of his balls hitting my ass and feeling my body react to each deep thrust. I'm embarrassed to say I only lasted about 5 minutes before I couldnt keep it in anymore, he had been going hard and fast the whole time and said he could have gone longer so maybe we may have to do this a little more often haha.
I told him I was close and he did the best thing ever, He grabbed my legs and lifted them way back behind my head and just went to town. I have never felt such a incredible sensation and shot multiple jets of cum all over, I hit the wall behind me, my fucking eye (it does hurt, jesus) and dribbled all over my chest. Zee saw this and pulled out, I watched his balls tremble as he struggled to get the condom off. As soon as the condom cleared the tip of his cock he shot a huge load, at this point I had sat up hoping to blow him a lil more before he came but instead sat up to a full shower facial. three or four good shots on my face and chest. It was a fucking mess I tell ya it was a bitch to clean up. thank god somehow none had gotten on my sheets and had pretty much only landed on me or hit the wall. He collapsed next to me and we just sat there breathing hard as hell taking in what had just happened, my whole body still tingled, especially my knees. When I finally had the strength to get up I grabbed a towel and cleaned up a bit. Shortly after he got dressed and took off because low and behold we had actually been kissing and fucking for an hour and a half.
Boy did I need that, not to mention, when he finally started fucking me? was when Natalie Portman Mila Kunis started eating each other out, it was a lot hotter than I remember ;P
Keep reading
Cheers
Max
SO yeah, I have heard from more than one person that the occasional post of my sexapades has been rather entertaining, i think its because I dont post them all that much that they end up so liked haha. Or maybe i'm just good at writing, but thats not too likely. But yes, After about an 8 month dry spell I FINALLY got laid. Finally. I should preface that I will NOT be sleeping with this person again, he is nice and wants more like I do but when baggage starts dumping out, Its not something I can handle a lot fo right now, but I will post more about that in a different post, this is just the fun stuff :)
We'll call him Zee, hes a white guy, 23, and a little shorter than I am (Im a tall mofo at 6'5") with long hair and a cute smile. He has snake bite piercing and a tongue stud, a tattoo on his back and on his upper arm which looked really hot. He had a banging bod, tight abs and decent arms. And his dick? Beautiful
We met on manhunt and had been talking for awhile, he was really nice and genuine, we talked a lot about how he was going to school and just looking for fun but would like something more. And he was 420 friendly, always a plus :) So I invited him over to snuggle and he actually said yes. Now I'm very upfront about my body since its pretty much my one point of self degradation I have. I am working out and with my limited budget I eat less and have been trimming down but im still not happy with it. So he knew I was a cub, with fuzz and all and came anyways which made me very happy :) He got to my place and we chatted for awhile and introduced eachother to our pieces. He didnt name his whic i thought was weird but we were hitting it off pretty well! So we decided to watch a movie, he picked black swan.
I am going to go out on a limb and say maybe a darren aronovski movie isnt the best cuddle movie but it didnt matter much since we didnt spend much time watching the movie haha. We cuddled for about 30% of the movie which turned into us making out and rolling around slowly stripping eachother. The rush of unbuttoning his pants made my fingers tremble a bit, but with the pressure that was behind it they popped right open. We rolled around some more in just our boxers, just letting our hips grind together, he would run his nails down my back once in a while and I would shudder, it was really hot. After he did that a few times I couldnt wait any longer. I grabbed his hips, picked him up and sat him up so I could rip off his boxers and see his glorious junk. It stood rigidly at attention and throbbed in front of me as i tenderly licked that sensitive area between his balls and thigh, he writhed and moaned and I hadnt even touched his dick yet.
Then I took as much as I could down my throat, he had to be a good at least 8 inches and decently thick. His sack was loose around his balls and fell between his legs it was so relaxed, but full. Finally I needed a breather and he rolled me over and started going down on me and I have to say, I usually hate head but he was so good at it ( I think his tongue stud had something to do with it) I had to ask him to stop because I couldnt stop from kicking at the sheets. It was some fuckin intense head. Finally after nibbling on his neck and collarbone I asked him to fuck me.
I rolled a condom on and pulled it all the way to the base, using up all of the condom with a hair of space at the base of his cock. I took it on my back, At first I was afraid we were going to need some lube but he went slow until he was completely in. Oh god, it felt so good. It has been too long and someone that big hurts just a little at first but very quickly that chill of pleasure hits every nerve in your body and you just relax and enjoy it. Now something you guys might not know about me is I don't do slow very well, in fact if I'm bottoming I want to be POUNDED. I love that feeling of his balls hitting my ass and feeling my body react to each deep thrust. I'm embarrassed to say I only lasted about 5 minutes before I couldnt keep it in anymore, he had been going hard and fast the whole time and said he could have gone longer so maybe we may have to do this a little more often haha.
I told him I was close and he did the best thing ever, He grabbed my legs and lifted them way back behind my head and just went to town. I have never felt such a incredible sensation and shot multiple jets of cum all over, I hit the wall behind me, my fucking eye (it does hurt, jesus) and dribbled all over my chest. Zee saw this and pulled out, I watched his balls tremble as he struggled to get the condom off. As soon as the condom cleared the tip of his cock he shot a huge load, at this point I had sat up hoping to blow him a lil more before he came but instead sat up to a full shower facial. three or four good shots on my face and chest. It was a fucking mess I tell ya it was a bitch to clean up. thank god somehow none had gotten on my sheets and had pretty much only landed on me or hit the wall. He collapsed next to me and we just sat there breathing hard as hell taking in what had just happened, my whole body still tingled, especially my knees. When I finally had the strength to get up I grabbed a towel and cleaned up a bit. Shortly after he got dressed and took off because low and behold we had actually been kissing and fucking for an hour and a half.
Boy did I need that, not to mention, when he finally started fucking me? was when Natalie Portman Mila Kunis started eating each other out, it was a lot hotter than I remember ;P
Keep reading
Cheers
Max
Monday, November 28, 2011
Light and Dark
The stark contrast between home and here at school can be a bit jarring at times, here at school im out but there isnt really anybody to be out to. School is stressful, research/work/speakupp dont help when it come to the work load. At home my responsibilities dissolve away and I can feel that weight which sits on my chest just evaporate. I wish I could find a happy medium between the two but at this stage in my life i'm just going to have to grin and bear it for the next couple years :/ a bummer to realize but thats life.
My last night at home was...interesting. I went to Nyssa's house to party down with her, a couple we're mutually friends with, joe and briana. It was an interesting group and the party started out slow but definitely moved up in my rank of craziest partys when the booze started flowin. I'll skip the details and fast-forward to all of us in a hot tub together naked. It was a blast. No nothing happened it was just the whole drunk giggles coupled with relaxing with jacuzzi jets. Before I knew it, it was just me and joe in the hot tub together naked, drunk, and alone. I wanted to jump his bones so fuckin bad but thank god ol booze brain wasnt completely in control haha we just sat and chatted unil 6 in the fuckin morning. SIX!!! it was nuts and the way he was so comfortable made me think "perhaps I can make a move" but at the same time he has full on flashed me (not just some quick thing either, but a "hey check out my balls" kinda look lol) just to prove how comfortable he is with me and his sexuality. WHich is great but at the same time a total tease to me haha oh well, I got plenty of looks :) Idk what do you guys think, you think he was lookin to fool around drunk a lil? I always miss subtle hints like that but at the same time hes a cool kid and I didnt wanna completely fuck things over if he got weird about it.
But yeah, went home and crashed fuckin hard after that, but not before getting all those images of joe outta my brain ;) And was woken up by the dogs at noon the next afternoon, I had to run quick to jerrys before going to grab a roommate and make my way back to gf. I cannot put into works how awful the drive back to school is, not only is all the stress creeping back into my shoulders the whole time but also everything is dying around you as you drive up until you hit fargo and realize all you can see is dead grass as far as the eye can see. It is truly horrific and even more difficult to stay awake through the whole drive. I took TWO five hour energies and a monster and was still yawning the whole time. I hate that drive with a fiery passion. But now I'm home (yay?) and finals are upon me, I have a huge speech due next week and stress up the wahoo all the way until finals, prepare thynselves for the cursory "IM SO FUCKING STRESSED" posts in the coming weeks if I even have time to post.
But on a different note, check out my tumblr are bored or need a quick laugh, I love tumblr just for the ease of use and how its interesting to get to know someone through the pictures and videos they post. Its almost all pictures and vids like I said so minimal brain power is needed to process it all, something we can all appreciate from time to time :) CLICK HERE FOR HAPPY FUN TIME!!!
P.S. Flirting with the most adorable kid right now, god I hope something comes out of it he is really a catch!!
We've been chatting and exchanging pics and hes more real than the normal "wanna fuck?" guys you usually run into. Meeting him will be my reward after finals if we click and keep chatting. Enjoy the eye candy ;)
Cheers
Max
My last night at home was...interesting. I went to Nyssa's house to party down with her, a couple we're mutually friends with, joe and briana. It was an interesting group and the party started out slow but definitely moved up in my rank of craziest partys when the booze started flowin. I'll skip the details and fast-forward to all of us in a hot tub together naked. It was a blast. No nothing happened it was just the whole drunk giggles coupled with relaxing with jacuzzi jets. Before I knew it, it was just me and joe in the hot tub together naked, drunk, and alone. I wanted to jump his bones so fuckin bad but thank god ol booze brain wasnt completely in control haha we just sat and chatted unil 6 in the fuckin morning. SIX!!! it was nuts and the way he was so comfortable made me think "perhaps I can make a move" but at the same time he has full on flashed me (not just some quick thing either, but a "hey check out my balls" kinda look lol) just to prove how comfortable he is with me and his sexuality. WHich is great but at the same time a total tease to me haha oh well, I got plenty of looks :) Idk what do you guys think, you think he was lookin to fool around drunk a lil? I always miss subtle hints like that but at the same time hes a cool kid and I didnt wanna completely fuck things over if he got weird about it.
But yeah, went home and crashed fuckin hard after that, but not before getting all those images of joe outta my brain ;) And was woken up by the dogs at noon the next afternoon, I had to run quick to jerrys before going to grab a roommate and make my way back to gf. I cannot put into works how awful the drive back to school is, not only is all the stress creeping back into my shoulders the whole time but also everything is dying around you as you drive up until you hit fargo and realize all you can see is dead grass as far as the eye can see. It is truly horrific and even more difficult to stay awake through the whole drive. I took TWO five hour energies and a monster and was still yawning the whole time. I hate that drive with a fiery passion. But now I'm home (yay?) and finals are upon me, I have a huge speech due next week and stress up the wahoo all the way until finals, prepare thynselves for the cursory "IM SO FUCKING STRESSED" posts in the coming weeks if I even have time to post.
But on a different note, check out my tumblr are bored or need a quick laugh, I love tumblr just for the ease of use and how its interesting to get to know someone through the pictures and videos they post. Its almost all pictures and vids like I said so minimal brain power is needed to process it all, something we can all appreciate from time to time :) CLICK HERE FOR HAPPY FUN TIME!!!
P.S. Flirting with the most adorable kid right now, god I hope something comes out of it he is really a catch!!
We've been chatting and exchanging pics and hes more real than the normal "wanna fuck?" guys you usually run into. Meeting him will be my reward after finals if we click and keep chatting. Enjoy the eye candy ;)
Cheers
Max
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Alpha
So I consider myself to be very masculine as far as my character goes, I have a pretty gay haircut and do like to make myself look good so i dress nicely, but sometimes i think that is just an act to advertise my homosexuality to other people so I dont go completely unnoticed. Not last night but the night before, My buddy travis pulled me aside and explained to me that I am the alpha of our group, I guess im just the head bitch in charge and I had no idea! Do you guys think this is even a real thing? I mean, i never thought about it until travis brought it up but it is an interesting idea. I mean me? WHy me? I am gone the most out of the group and do the least planning but for some reason everyone seems to gravitate in my direction, this became very apparent last summer when I was home all the time and people were blowing up my schedule all the time. To be honest its a nice little confidence boost to be called the alpha, to know they will follow me no matter what? Kinda cool, I just have to keep it all from going to my head.
I hope everyone had en enjoyable Thanksgiving! OUrs was uneventful, just a good ol fashioned diner. I then went to best buy and hung out with jerry who had been there for two days already, he got a really bomb tablet, keyboard, and a 200 dollar 42 in television. A fuckin steal is what that is lol. I got a blu ray movie for my dad and a game for my sister, i was saving my money for all the clothes I was going to buy, and i busted a huge wad on black friday's face if I do say so myself!
I went to two stores, american eagle and gap. Got two shirts, a pair of undies, socks, a sweater, and cologne from american eagle. From the Gap I got two pairs of pants, a pair of shorts, a belt, a scarf, and a bomb sweater/hoodie. I'll post pictures when I have time to lay it all out or model it :) I spose I dont have too many pictures of myself on here so it'll be interesting for you guys to see me with my new haircut and all, maybe I'll change my blogger picture :) We'l see!
Have an awesome rest of your weekend guys, im gonna go have a final bash with the guys tonight and then im off back to school tomorrow afternoon. Lame, break was too short as always.
Cheers
Max
I hope everyone had en enjoyable Thanksgiving! OUrs was uneventful, just a good ol fashioned diner. I then went to best buy and hung out with jerry who had been there for two days already, he got a really bomb tablet, keyboard, and a 200 dollar 42 in television. A fuckin steal is what that is lol. I got a blu ray movie for my dad and a game for my sister, i was saving my money for all the clothes I was going to buy, and i busted a huge wad on black friday's face if I do say so myself!
I went to two stores, american eagle and gap. Got two shirts, a pair of undies, socks, a sweater, and cologne from american eagle. From the Gap I got two pairs of pants, a pair of shorts, a belt, a scarf, and a bomb sweater/hoodie. I'll post pictures when I have time to lay it all out or model it :) I spose I dont have too many pictures of myself on here so it'll be interesting for you guys to see me with my new haircut and all, maybe I'll change my blogger picture :) We'l see!
Have an awesome rest of your weekend guys, im gonna go have a final bash with the guys tonight and then im off back to school tomorrow afternoon. Lame, break was too short as always.
Cheers
Max
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Wait this was a Weekend?!?! SHIT!!!!
Well at least I get next weekend off from work and everything, Thanksgiving is rapidly approaching and with nothing besides work standing in my way, I'm thrilled. This weekend however? Exhausting, stressful and annoying. A lot of shit happend this week at all so im gonna make a list and hit some of them, the rest are pretty self explanitory:
-Tuition snafu double charged me over drafting my account costing me 155 dollars in overdraft fees
-Got a really bad head cold/possible sinus infection
-Got awarded 1,750.00 from UND for equipment
-Might have done well on my Neuro exam
-Dressed up as James Lipton for a class speech (bald caps are expensive!)
-Got pulled into work all weekend because a coworker quit so I went from a 6 hour weekend to a 22 hour one.
-Got a call from the kid I fooled around with at 4 this morning, he called me baby and it was weird
SO where to begin right? The tuition snafu has been figured out but it was 4 hours of legwork on Wednesday between my bank and the school bitchy Student Account Services Lady. Frusterating to say the least and the worst part is it was a 26.36 dollar fee, thats it and I got 155.00 dollars worth of fees. I may be changing backs to a credit union.
This cold? Killing me. I had to take my neuro exam under the influence of dayquil and a lot of it. I don't like taking tests on that stuff because it makes me fuzzy. But come Thursday, despite my cold I brought all the paperwork and had a meeting with the student committee in charge of funding publications and they gave speakupp 1750 for equipment. No interest loan basically which I can pay back at my own speed. All they want is to garnish 20% of ad revenue to an account on campus which can be used to pay off the debt, which isnt a problem because I would like to pay this off asap. SO yay!! Very high quality equipment!
And this morning I awoke to a missed call, message, and text from the kid I hooked up with last Sunday. It was at 4 in the morning so he was obviously fucked up on something. He spoke clearly about how he misses me and he called me baby. SOme would have found that cute but it was just downright sad to me. Dunno if i wanna continue on with this kid if hes getting attached, or worse I get attached (I get attached VERY easily, I'm just really affectionate). I just texted him back "Baby? Wow you must have been drunk lol". A lil rude but it shows him i'm still nice about it and don't really care. We'll see how that pans out.
Which brings me here, to work where I sit typing this post since its Sunday and all the stoners are still asleep, post coital or otherwise. 22 hours this weekend when I should have had six but Ty quit and here I am. Sick as hell dreaming of cough drops and not able to get any. Tea is helping with my nose but not my now sore throat. I just need bed rest but that isnt going to be able to happen until I get home for break and I was hoping I would be better before then because im going black friday shopping after thanksgiving dinner at My aunts house. Every year me, jerry and company camp outside of Best Buy in a heated tent and eat thanksgiving leftovers from all our families. I usually give Jerry the money for whatever I wanted there and take off for the gap because everything half off? Fuck yeah! And very rarely do you see a guy there so I get all my sizes and don't have to fight anybody :)
I hope everyone reading this has somewhere special to be for Turkey day! Have a great day everyone and i'll post soon
Cheers
Max
-Tuition snafu double charged me over drafting my account costing me 155 dollars in overdraft fees
-Got a really bad head cold/possible sinus infection
-Got awarded 1,750.00 from UND for equipment
-Might have done well on my Neuro exam
-Dressed up as James Lipton for a class speech (bald caps are expensive!)
-Got pulled into work all weekend because a coworker quit so I went from a 6 hour weekend to a 22 hour one.
-Got a call from the kid I fooled around with at 4 this morning, he called me baby and it was weird
SO where to begin right? The tuition snafu has been figured out but it was 4 hours of legwork on Wednesday between my bank and the school bitchy Student Account Services Lady. Frusterating to say the least and the worst part is it was a 26.36 dollar fee, thats it and I got 155.00 dollars worth of fees. I may be changing backs to a credit union.
This cold? Killing me. I had to take my neuro exam under the influence of dayquil and a lot of it. I don't like taking tests on that stuff because it makes me fuzzy. But come Thursday, despite my cold I brought all the paperwork and had a meeting with the student committee in charge of funding publications and they gave speakupp 1750 for equipment. No interest loan basically which I can pay back at my own speed. All they want is to garnish 20% of ad revenue to an account on campus which can be used to pay off the debt, which isnt a problem because I would like to pay this off asap. SO yay!! Very high quality equipment!
And this morning I awoke to a missed call, message, and text from the kid I hooked up with last Sunday. It was at 4 in the morning so he was obviously fucked up on something. He spoke clearly about how he misses me and he called me baby. SOme would have found that cute but it was just downright sad to me. Dunno if i wanna continue on with this kid if hes getting attached, or worse I get attached (I get attached VERY easily, I'm just really affectionate). I just texted him back "Baby? Wow you must have been drunk lol". A lil rude but it shows him i'm still nice about it and don't really care. We'll see how that pans out.
Which brings me here, to work where I sit typing this post since its Sunday and all the stoners are still asleep, post coital or otherwise. 22 hours this weekend when I should have had six but Ty quit and here I am. Sick as hell dreaming of cough drops and not able to get any. Tea is helping with my nose but not my now sore throat. I just need bed rest but that isnt going to be able to happen until I get home for break and I was hoping I would be better before then because im going black friday shopping after thanksgiving dinner at My aunts house. Every year me, jerry and company camp outside of Best Buy in a heated tent and eat thanksgiving leftovers from all our families. I usually give Jerry the money for whatever I wanted there and take off for the gap because everything half off? Fuck yeah! And very rarely do you see a guy there so I get all my sizes and don't have to fight anybody :)
I hope everyone reading this has somewhere special to be for Turkey day! Have a great day everyone and i'll post soon
Cheers
Max
Thursday, November 17, 2011
THe things that get you through the night
Ugh, my social life has been a mess. I'm supposed to be studying (like every other moment of my life) but im procrastinating by being on here, so I feel like this is at least productive procrastination! If there is such a thing.
I have been on the prowl for a relationship for quite some time with no results. I understand with my limited time to actually socialize and the glaring flaws i have and continue to beat myself up over, it can be a tough beat to find a guy. Especially in this region. I have flirted with some, but i'm waiting for a guy to want me around and is willing to ask me to come to them or is willing to come to me, neither has happened. There is one guy who I did kinda hook up with lately, And as fucking cliche and embaressing as it is, His name is Max. Yes, i fooled around with a guy with the same name as me. Actually I know him from high school ironically, he's bi and flirting and asked me if i wanted to fool around. Actually how he put it was "Pound me until I sneeze white." Charming, right?
Despite the fact that I don't consider myself a top really, I went along with it because to be honest, its been over 6 months since I've been laid so why the fuck not? He came over and as we watched a movie we snuggled and rolled around (Always my favorite part! Well...Except for that money shot...lol). I ended up blowing him. Yep, you read that right. And i'm actually not ashamed at all, he said I was good lol. Hes a fit little bugger, not quite a twink but HUNG. sometimes its surprising that the people you least expect it pack the most heat lol. So i got to get off as well and it was all hunkey dorey, we cuddled for like another hour and a half and watched sweeney todd until about 3 in the morning. It was nice to have someone to cuddle. I had to keep reminding myself not to get attached because cuddling is the road to my damn heart, along with pretty much any form of an affection.
God i'm a soft touch (Totally a line one of my professors used in stead of "A Softey" lol)
I'm still looking but I have needs too, im going to be a little more open about my sexuality now and explore it more. Although now I do need to go get tested :/ gonna have to figure that one out. Hope everyone out there is doing well and has someone warm to cuddle at night :)
Cheers
Max
I have been on the prowl for a relationship for quite some time with no results. I understand with my limited time to actually socialize and the glaring flaws i have and continue to beat myself up over, it can be a tough beat to find a guy. Especially in this region. I have flirted with some, but i'm waiting for a guy to want me around and is willing to ask me to come to them or is willing to come to me, neither has happened. There is one guy who I did kinda hook up with lately, And as fucking cliche and embaressing as it is, His name is Max. Yes, i fooled around with a guy with the same name as me. Actually I know him from high school ironically, he's bi and flirting and asked me if i wanted to fool around. Actually how he put it was "Pound me until I sneeze white." Charming, right?
Despite the fact that I don't consider myself a top really, I went along with it because to be honest, its been over 6 months since I've been laid so why the fuck not? He came over and as we watched a movie we snuggled and rolled around (Always my favorite part! Well...Except for that money shot...lol). I ended up blowing him. Yep, you read that right. And i'm actually not ashamed at all, he said I was good lol. Hes a fit little bugger, not quite a twink but HUNG. sometimes its surprising that the people you least expect it pack the most heat lol. So i got to get off as well and it was all hunkey dorey, we cuddled for like another hour and a half and watched sweeney todd until about 3 in the morning. It was nice to have someone to cuddle. I had to keep reminding myself not to get attached because cuddling is the road to my damn heart, along with pretty much any form of an affection.
God i'm a soft touch (Totally a line one of my professors used in stead of "A Softey" lol)
I'm still looking but I have needs too, im going to be a little more open about my sexuality now and explore it more. Although now I do need to go get tested :/ gonna have to figure that one out. Hope everyone out there is doing well and has someone warm to cuddle at night :)
Cheers
Max
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Change
Its inevitable, happens sometimes without us knowing about it. Speakupp has brought a lot of change into my life and is helping me to see and think like an adult. I sometimes wonder why people dont comment as much and I think this may be the reason, I've gotten hyper analytical and downright no fun, I need to cool my jets. SO here is a question which will help me explain:
What will your new blog be about? Have you just decided to start a fresh or will you be keeping this one to?
I will start completely new. I have no idea what i'm going to call it yet because this change wont be happening for at least 3-4 months. But with the release of speakupp I want to redefine my blog just a hair because speakupp has redefined me a little bit. I'm a little more politically active now, more busy, more business-y, and perhaps a little more vain. I'm growing up! It's awesome and depressing at the same time. I just need to remember i'm only 20 sometimes and not try to take on the world, I keep pretty high standards for myself, and they can kick my ass and make me feel like shit. But that personal growth for ya, huh?
Essentially the new blog will be the same as this just me grown up, a fresh slate. I'll still blog the same, hopefully more consistently. But it'll be a bit more active, a little less drama filed although my life will still be the main topic. I just hope all of you will continue to come along for the ride :)
Cheers
Max
What will your new blog be about? Have you just decided to start a fresh or will you be keeping this one to?
I will start completely new. I have no idea what i'm going to call it yet because this change wont be happening for at least 3-4 months. But with the release of speakupp I want to redefine my blog just a hair because speakupp has redefined me a little bit. I'm a little more politically active now, more busy, more business-y, and perhaps a little more vain. I'm growing up! It's awesome and depressing at the same time. I just need to remember i'm only 20 sometimes and not try to take on the world, I keep pretty high standards for myself, and they can kick my ass and make me feel like shit. But that personal growth for ya, huh?
Essentially the new blog will be the same as this just me grown up, a fresh slate. I'll still blog the same, hopefully more consistently. But it'll be a bit more active, a little less drama filed although my life will still be the main topic. I just hope all of you will continue to come along for the ride :)
Cheers
Max
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